I CAN'T TAKE THIS ANYMORE
   STOP LYING! STOP PRETENDING!
   STOP EVERYTHING!!!
   *pulls the goddamn trigger*

   ...

   Fuck this world. I don't understand how I can be so kind and help everyone and try my absolute best and get nothing in return No, I don't mean that I want popularity or ninety friends or to win the lottery because I'm so kind. No, I mean that I think I at least deserve to be helped in return. Or maybe just a friend. I think I deserve a friend. Right?

   I lift you up as I fall and I wipe away your tears as I hold back mine. I show you the sunshine when I only see darkness and I guide you toward "Heaven" as I walk through hell. I fucking pull you from the hands dragging you down as they drag me down. I help you as nobody helps me!

   I can't do anything right. I can't find anything good about myself. I think I'm pretty, and someone calls me ugly. I think I'm kind, and someone gets hurt because of something I did. I think I'm smart, and I do something stupid. I think I'm selfless, and I get called selfish. I think I'm strong, and I start crying. I think I'm likable, and someone hates me. I think one thing and am proven the other!

   SO WHY THE FUCK AM I STILL HERE!?

   ...

And it was then that she realized she couldn't save her. She was already gone.

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