Chapter 47

The conversation took place the next day.

            I was staying over at Lexi's house, so after dinner with her father and brother, where her father mostly talked about his latest mechanical tinkering, while I tried to keep up as much as I could, and Tyler and Lexi just whined about not understanding what he was saying, Lexi and I went back to her room.

            To do homework. Or at least that was what Lexi said.

            I didn't trust her right now. 

            Once we got in her room, I went to sit crossed legged on her bed, while she closed the door behind her, and then kind of jumped on the bed too.

"I think we need to have the adult conversation now," I said, trying to stay on track.

"No, no, I think we need to do some more exploring," Lexi replied, leaning forward towards me.

I pressed a finger on her forehead, kind of pushing her away. "There shall be no exploring in this room."

That kind of froze my girlfriend in her tracks. "What?"

"There might be no no-fornication rules at my house, but there is one at yours. I will not be doing anything that could remotely get me in trouble when I'm under the roof of your shark of a father," I informed her.

I wasn't going to get on the wrong side of her father. That man knew everything.

My Pumpkin kind of gapped at me. It was fun to have her surprised for once. "You can't be serious."

"My room is soundproof and far from my parents. Yours is not, and we're close to your father and your brother. We're not doing anything like we did in my room."

It was hard to not think about that morning right now, when we were alone in her room on her bed.

But we did need to have a conversation, before anything else happened.

"You can't be serious? Really? Nothing?"

"I'll gladly kiss you but that's it."

"Jesus, this suuuuuucks," she whined, kind of throwing her head back.

"No, no. No sucking either." Lexi hit me with a pillow making me laugh. "So, now, adult conversation."

"Sure, whatever, adult conversation," Lexi said with a pout, wrapping her arms around the pillow, holding it against her chest.

So, we should probably get the more serious stuff out of the way. "I think I've mentioned it before, but with my frequent health check up, I do go through a bunch of blood tests and what not, so, I'm clean. I'm not sure if I told you this before, but yeah. Nothing of the venereal disease variety."

"Well, I'm a virgin, so if I do have something, I guess I got kidnapped by aliens with crabs."

"Fair."

Lexi kind of frowned, like she was thinking about the best course of action, and then after taking a breath, said, "I guess it's also the moment where I tell you I'm on the pill."

"Oh." I hadn't known that. I wasn't sure how I was going to process that.

"Yeah."

"Were you before?"

"No, it's fairly new. You know, you and me new. Also, the nurse told me this might help with my period cramps, so fingers crossed."

            "That would definitely be nice," I replied, trying not to focus on the fact that she'd gotten on the pill because we started dating. Because she was expecting us to have sex. Which shouldn't come as a surprised, we were dating, of course that was an option, but like. Aaaah.

            Yes. We definitely needed to have an adult conversation.

            "Yeah."

            "So, we're like nowhere near there, but should I stock up on condoms? Do you want us to be reaaally better safe than sorry?" I asked. Yes, being safe and prepare. I could have this conversation without fainting.

            "I'd much rather have this conversation if we were both naked," Lexi whined.

            "No, I don't think you would."

            There would be no conversation if we were naked. I wasn't that stupid.

            She looked at me with what I could only define as sultry eyes. "Oh, I know I would."

            "Christ," I let out automatically. She wasn't allowed to seduce me right now! I was trying to have the adult responsible conversation.

            "Is nowhere to be found today," Lexi replied, still with that sexy satisfied little grin.

            Dead. I was going to die.

            "You're a menace. So, condoms?" I asked, trying to get us back on track.

            "Jesus," Lexi let out, kind of throwing her hands in the air. "I don't know. Just the pill should be fine, right? Honestly, I don't really care. I assume it would be nicer and easier without one."

            "So, no condom?"      

            "You're clean, I'm clean. I'm one the pill. We're fine," Lexi replied, at least finally sounding at little bit affected by the conversation.

            "Alright, so moving on. So... you've never done anything."

            "Nothing."

            "Not even."

            "Nooooooooo." Lexi said before I could even finish my sentence.

            "Why not?" I asked. This was fun because she felt more flustered about this.

            "I don't know? I wasn't really interested in, you know, sex. It kinda grossed me out for a while to be honest. The idea of being naked with someone. Kissing, fine, but naked? No. And then I got my period at like fourteen, and it was like the hormones started to kick in after, and I dated Alex, but nothing was going on there, and I just, I don't know... never really... I don't know, I'm not a guy that wakes up with a boner. I don't need to do anything."

            I chuckled at her tone, shaking my head, while smiling at her. "Alright, alright. So."

It was strange and wild to think that we were having this kind of conversation right now. She probably never talked about any of this with anyone. This was just between us. It made me way too giddy for no good reasons.

            "So?"

            "Do we need like, safe words, and a list of things you absolutely do not want to do, or absolutely want to do?"

            "I would reaaaally like it if you we were both naked right now," Lexi whined again.

            I shook my head, closing my eyes. "Out of the question. Simply having this discussion right now, in your room is dangerous with the shark that could be lurking, but I figured it would be safer to have it here."

            "Because I can't slip my hand in your pants again?"

            My heart skipped a beat. "Precisely."

            "Did you like it?" she asked, tilting her head to study me.

            We hadn't really talked about it, not really in specific words. I was going to start hyperventilating soon.

"Yes, of course I liked it."

            Lexi gave a little shrug. "I have no idea what I'm doing by the way, so if you didn't like it, or don't like anything I do, just tell me, because I'm flying blind here."

            I loved her for being able to be this vulnerable with me. I could be too.

            "I'm also flying blind. I've never been with someone I loved that I wanted to... you know."

            "Pleasure?" Lexi finished for me with a grin.

            "Christ."

            "Once again, is nowhere to be found today."

            I let out an amused breath, looking back in her eyes. "I just want us to be ready. I don't want to be a dumb teenager, that does something stupid. This relationship is very serious to me."

            "It is to me too."

            "I love you and I want us to do things right."

            "And once again, I will remind you that if we were both naked right now, this would be a lot more effective of a conversation," she said, her hands going to my chest.

            Enough.

            I grabbed her wrists in my hand, before she could touch me, and pinned her on the bed, arms above her.

I pressed my body against hers, one of her legs wrapping around me, while I kissed her a little too frantically, my hand going to her breast, a little annoyed with her shirt and bra.

I felt like I'd been walking around with half a boner ever since that morning, and going crazy about how it had felt, her hand on me, my hands on her, my lips on her skin.       

            I'd barely scratched the surface of what I actually wanted to do with her. She was driving me mad.

            My hand that wasn't holding on to her wrists slipped between us, going down.

            Lexi took a sharp intake of breath.

            "Did you like it, when I touched you there?" I asked, happy to be in control again.

            "Yes," she breathed, barely a whisper.

            "Are you going to do it without me now?" I whispered before kissing the skin under her ear.

            She wasn't saying anything though, just breathing faster, before letting out the tiniest of moans, but just enough to snap me out of it.

            This was a baaaaad idea.

            I pushed myself off of her, and got out of her bed instantly.

            "Sorry. Nope, no, no no, we're not doing this again," I said. Lexi kinda sat up and glared at me, but then got up and went straight to her wardrobe, grabbing a hoodie, and putting it on. "What are you doing?" I asked her.

            "Getting dress, so we can go," she grumbled.

            "Go where?" I laughed.

            "To your house without the no-fornication rule, of course."

            I chuckled at her antics. "And how exactly would you explain this to your father, the us leaving at this hour when we're supposed to sleep here?"

            "I don't know?" she replied, throwing her hands in the air, exasperate. "I'll say your bed is bigger, and we'll be able to stay further apart at your house?"

            I nodded, amused. "Suuuuuure."

            "This is torture."

            I grinned. "I disagree. I like this a lot."

            "What? Me suffering?" my Pumpkin whined.

            "No, you wanting me."

            We looked in each other's eyes. I swear I could feel sparks.

            "I'm done, get out of my room.," Lexi said, pointing to her door, "You're uninvited tonight."

            I burst into incredulous laughter. "Seriously?"

            "Yes, out of my bed, you goddamn tease," she said, grabbing me, trying to drag me out.

            "Really?" I asked, letting her.

            "Yep."

            "Just like that?" I asked, once I'd reached her door.

            She opened it, shoving my school bag in my arms. "Just like that."

            I grinned at her. "Fine."

            "I'm sleeping at your house tomorrow," she warned.

            "We'll see," I replied, and walked away.

            "I HATE YOU!"

            "I LOVE YOU TOO!" I shouted back, giddy at going back to her earliest form of love.

            Once I was downstairs and passed the living room, Lexi's father looked away from the television and at me and asked, "What happened?"

            "I got kicked out."

            Father-Shark narrowed his eyes at me. "Did you do something unbecoming of a gentleman?"

            "Quite the contrary. I refused her advance," I assured. Which wasn't completely true, but not completely wrong either.

            "See, Tyler, that's what you should have done," Michael told his son.

            Tyler was unaffected and just flipped me off. "Kiss ass."

            I laughed. "Good evening! See you guys later."

            They greeted me with a distant bye, eyes fixed on the game.

            I couldn't believe Lexi had kicked me out of her room.

            I was definitely going to be in trouble tomorrow night though.

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Happy Monday my little Pumpkins! <3

I really hope you liked this chapter. I've mentioned this before, but I want to build foundation for Lexi and Blake's relationship, and this conversation is one of the steps required. Also, I do have to build the tension. ;P

I am sitting in a studio in Kenilworth in England right now, typing this message. I am going to see Harry Styles tomorrow and I AM IN ENGLAND. I still haven't quite processed the England thing yet. Hopefully, you enjoy the earlier post. Since I am on England time, I can't be bother to be up at 5AM to upload this at the usual time. I was in Cambridge yesterday and it made me nostalgic about my uni years. Some people were actually graduating. For a second I kinda wished I had gone abroad to study. Do you guys ever rethink all your life choices? I know I often do. XD

Anyway! I got some more writing to catch up with. And I am also quite tired because we've just been running around in the last few days. So I'm going to leave now!

I'll see you guys next week! :D (England time again) LOVE YOU GUYS! Thanks for reading! <3