FIRST OFF, IF YOU DO NOT LIKE READING ABOUT ANY SORT OF MENTAL ILLNESS AND ABUSE, I ADVISE(can't spell currently. Sorry) YOU TO NOT READ AFTER THIS. IF YOU DO NOT CARE REGARDLESS, I WON'T STOP YOU! YOU ARE FREE TO CHOOSE OF WHAT YOU WANT TO DO! YOU CAN SKIP IF YOU WANT. REGARDLESS, I HOPE YOU ENJOY IF YOU DECIDE TO MOVE FORWARD! :D 

Also, this book has been edited multiple times, and might need to be edited more(who knows). If things change, you can re-read the chapters to see if anything as changed just in case. Alright, let's get this started! I also have changed many chapters, so they comments from past edits will still exist. I aplogize if they don't quite make sense. Anyone who has help me with this story in the past(getting names and classes), I'll just say thank you here. So, thank you all. :3 Alright, let's get this thing started! XD

So... There's kind of a backstory of how this story was created. Though the start of it was actually kind of funny. When I first wrote this, I was in my freshman year(though the school has the 9th graders stay in the middle school). Middle school was some part of my life where I struggled just to wake up in the morning. I didn't care about many things, and I didn't care how my grades would, or would become. I had no interest in life, and I just wanted to end it all(I promise this all ties into what I'm going to say).

Since I was in 6th grade, I've been playing in the band, and it's also the time I started playing flute. I loved it, and it was one of the few things that actually kept me going. Then in 9th grade, I found writing. I fell in love with it as fast as I fell in love with the flute(which was pretty fast). The reason this story exists is because of daydreaming in my Geography class one day. I, yet again felt depressed, and just wanted to go home, and similiar things in this story will be related to my actual life growing up.

Now, I will mention that I haven't gone through everything. This story also includes of what I've heard, seen, felt, and even feared. Also note that I've been writing this story for 5 years now, and as a 19-year-old, I finally feel proud of this story more than ever. If any of you saw how this story was the first time around... It wasn't all that good, and wasn't written too well. At that time, it was good to me, but when I looked back on it after slowly improving on this book, I couldn't help but cringe(which I mean, who doesn't when it comes to reviewing your older work, or first drafts?). Regardless, I wanted to help make this better. Thanks to friends who are currently helping me in my story, I get to receive feedback that I didn't have beforehand(which I should have done before, but didn't know who else was a writer until high school where I shared it with some friends from our Writers' Club).

Lost has a personal place in my heart, and I want to be able to write this so others like you readers can connect, as if she was a real human being, regardless if you've experienced any of these struggles and joyful times that she will face in this book. I guess you could say as well that this story helped me get some of my current thoughts at the time time down, even if they were messy and sloppy. It also helped me in a way where I felt free from judgement and allowed myself to show what I felt through a story.

Some of these emotions include: Joy, happiness, love, depression, and some anxiety. Which, I'm betting we all have felt, most to all of these emotions at this point in our lives. We love and hate all of these, but they are all unique.

I hope that when you read this book, that there will be something that you can take from this, and of course, no matter what, I would love feedback from you all. Whether it be something to help improve this story, or just saying if you enjoy this book or not. Don't be afraid to comment if you feel the need to it. I love seeing your guys' feedback and replies! I believe it's one of the best ways to connect with other writers and readers on this app.

If you've made this far, I hope you enjoy this teen fiction novel, and hope you have a great day!