Alexis P.O.V

Leaning my head back against the new wooden door my breath was shallow and I listened close for any movement in room. Wrapping my arms around my knees I held them close to my chest.  Letting the tears drip I wished that my mom was here to make everything better she'd know what to. Standing I sat on the couner top and looked into the mirror, Touching the lightening bolt I felt tingles fill my body covering every inch of my skin. I could feel Rens lips there.  Why did I have an.attraction to him? I hate him! Actually I dont know him.  But Paul, Ive known him my whole life he's been there through everything even my depression stage and now the thing with my dad. He was there when my mom died from cancer or when I git diagnosed. Hes been there my whole life. But Ren was right he cant do to me what Ren.does. Ren makes me tingle all over, He keeps me warm and makes me feel wanted but he also drives me mentally insane to the point where I have nosebleeds and wanna rip my hair out.

Rens P.O.V

"Do you really think that being a douche will fix any of this?" Ice asked standing next to me. Letting out a growl I touched my neck why couldnt she have marked me to? Why couldnt she have the same attraction to me as I her. Why couldnt she be in my pack? Why couldnt she be happy as my Luna? Slowly entering her room I walked over to the bathroom door and knocked softly "Beta Mesus?" Opening the door she stared at me her eyes filled with tears. Opening my arms I caught her as she threw herself into my arms. "Shhhh" I soothed her rubbing her back. "Its ok" I whispered into her ear. Kissing the hallow of my neck She giggled saddly as goosebumps littered across my skin. "Ya know its alright to feel the way you do about the situation but hurting yourself wont fix it" I whispered brushing my finger against the cut. "I know" she replyed nuzzling her face into my shoulder. "Im just so Confused and everything lately" "I know love" I replyed brushing a strand of hair from her face. Looking up at me she smiled softly, "it still suprises me that you havent been marked yet, I bet girls just throw themselves at you" smiling I nodded "yes but my neck was waiting for you my love"  bitting her lip she nodded in understanding she know what it was like to want a mate mark.  "I wish I could" she mumbled to herself, "You can" I urged. Looking up her eyes locked with mine and her mouth opened when those two words came out.....