I'm trying not to kill myself
So I smoke and I drink
Knowing I'm very sick
At least if it happens
It won't happen so quick

They think I'm pathetic
Only thinking of you
Well, what am I supposed to do?
I'm fucking losing for you

You're trying to avoid the discussion
And I'm trying to investigate
How are you feeling lately?
Have you been thinking about me?

All these dry texts and these dry conversations
Fucking up my head
Like I'm on some kind of medication
But I don't want to say goodbye

You sent another message
I left you on read
You can't keep fucking with my head
When will you get on my bed?

Is it not enough for you
When I said I would drive six hours to get to you?
When I said I wouldn't mind if there were other girls?
When I spread my legs wide open and came to your words?

Am I just a fool?
Starting my bad habits again 'cause of you
Fucking my life up for you
Oh, you might hate me but I hate you too

I wanna hatefuck you
Do you wanna hatefuck me too?
I'm a loser in love
I know and that's true