(A/N: Be prepared for a roller coaster of feels 😌)

Jungkook's POV

Tap tap tap.

I find myself taping my fingers on the table, waiting for Lucian. Today's the day. He walks in the restaurant, smiling once his gaze meets mine. Holy shit this will be hard.

"Hey babe." He leans for a kiss but I avoid it, having it land on my cheek. He chuckles nervously and sits across from me, picking up the menu. "So what's up?"

"Oh um well..." I stop, not knowing how to start this conversation. "I came here to tell you... That..." He puts the menu down, obvious worry spreading in face.

"Jungkook are you..." His eyes widen. "No. Wait what are you-"

"I'm sorry Lucian-"

"Stop."

"I can't anymore." Tears spring in his eyes. "Your friendship means so much to-"

"Don't." Tears fall freely down his face. "Don't do that to me. You can't-" He pauses and takes a shaky breath. "Please stop." He gets up from his seat and looks me in the eyes. "You don't know what you're missing out on." He picks up his table napkin and throws it in my face. He then storms out of the restaurant, leaving me with the awkward stares of everyone else.

Not too bad.

I get up from my seat and leave too, meeting a smiling Jimin that was leaning against his car. "How did it go?" He brings me in for a hug and I snuggle, letting out a sigh of relief.

"Really bad." I laugh a little in his hair that I now realize smells different, strawberries. "But then I remembered who I'm doing this for and I thought that it was worth it." He grins against my cheek and pulls me in for a kiss.

Fireworks blew, reminding me of our first kiss. "I missed you so much." He pecks me on the lips again before letting me go. He hops in the drivers seat and I join him in the car.

***

Jimin's POV

Ring ring ring

I pick up my phone, checking caller ID.

Namjoon

"Yeah?"

"Hey let's hang out."

"Ok. Come over in 10 min."

He knocks, letting me know that he arrived. "Hey! What's up?" He gives me a hug and comes in, smiling.

"I uh came here to give you this." He hands me a ticket for a show tonight.

"What's it for?"

"Well, I'm having my first concert today and I wanted everyone to come. You will right?"

I nod immediately. "Of course! I'm going to support my best and longest friend!"

I take out my phone and text Jungkook. He said he also got one. "And I have an extra ticket so you can... Ask anyone.... If you want." He rubs the back of his neck and I smile. Of course it's for Jin.

"Oh yeah. Definitely." I smile and put the tickets on the counter so I won't forget them later. He smiles back and jumps on the couch.

"Let's watch a movie. Then I have to leave to get ready."

"All right." I jump in next to him after popping in the movie. I press play and we snuggle under the blanket.

***

After he left, I texted Jin, inviting him to the concert of a 'new' rapper under the alias: Rap Monster. He said he would try to make it. I jump for joy, happy that he will finally leave his shell and risk coming out.

Lately, he's been saying that he was too scared to leave his place because of what happened but it's been enough time. He should come out again. If anything happens, at least Namjoon would be there. Looking at the time, I start getting ready.

***

Jin's POV

Sigh.

I pat down my clothing, nervous about tonight. I've recently picked up this nervous habit of tapping or biting my lip and I find myself doing it a lot these days. I hope this goes well.

I hear a ping from my phone and see a text from Jimin.

I got us front row seats! Hurry, the show is starting soon!

I smile and text back that I'll be there soon. I get in the car, tapping on the wheel the whole way. At the red light, my phone buzzes multiple times so I finally check my twitter.

New rapper, Rap Monster is debuting today, tickets are sold out!

Suddenly I feel excited that I'm going. He seems to be pretty famous already and we have front row tickets!

Once I get there, I find my friends and sit down with them. Unfortunately, I sit in between the handsy Jikook couple and the lovey-dovey Yoonjay couple. Ugh. At least I'm not next to the loud VHope couple, they're next to Jikook.

This also means that I get to sit alone, in the middle of all the PDA. I start to feel anxious with the announcer's loud voice rings through the small stadium. The lights begin to dim and the nervousness turns into excitement. The spotlight turns on to the center stage, revealing closed curtains.

The curtains open to reveal a tall man in multiple layers, wearing a white cap that's covering his face. I squint, trying to get a better look but it doesn't seem to work. Then he lifts up the mike to his face and starts speaking.

"Hello everyone I'm Rap Monster from Big Hit Entertainment. And today I will rap a couple of songs that are not mine and one I made for someone who is very dear to me but I lost."

The crowd 'awwwws' and he smiles sadly but continues. My heart starts to race and I sink in my chair.

"I made the song hoping that they would understand how I feel about them and how sorry I am." He looks around the audience but can't see a thing because the room is pitch black.

I blush profusely, wishing I could die. He can see me. He can see me. He can see me. He starts to rap a couple songs that have already been produced by other people and the crowd cheers.

He smiles and bows when he's done and he coughs in his mike, alerting the audience that he will speak. "This last song is the one that I made especially for someone I care about a lot. Hopefully they could find it in them to forgive me."

There was a chorus of 'Forgive him' all throughout the audience and I sink deeper into my chair. Jimin notices and grips onto my hand. Namjoon starts and my jaw drops in awe.

You said you would always be there for me, but you're not.
And it's because of me. It's my fault.

I've never heard Namjoon rap with such passion or intensity and my heart races at a familiar pace knowing that it was all for me.

I'm sorry that I'm both your umbrella and the rain.
Nobody's fault but mine for my heartache this time.

My tears well up in my eyes and my grip on Jimin's hand becomes impossibly tight.

It's a heartache
Nothing but a heartache
Hits you when it's too late
Hits you when you're down

My tears flow freely, relating to the lyrics.

Sometimes I look at you & remember you used to be mine
I remember all of the memories we shared together and all of the times we laughed
I remember when you held me and we wouldn't speak, we'd just look into each other's eyes
I remember the way you'd make me smile even if I was feeling like shit
And now I know that you mean the world to me and all I want is for me to mean the world to you again.

I almost get up out of my seat and leave. I want to escape this pain, it's too raw.

But it's a heartache
Nothing but a heartache
Hits you when it's too late
Hits you when you're down

And yet I'm so afraid that one day I'll meet you and you say
"You're the one who broke my heart
You're the reason my world fell apart
You're the one that made me cry"
And I'll be waiting for you to say
"And yet, I'm still in love with you
And I don't know why"

But it's a heartache
Nothing but a heartache
Hits you when it's too late
Hits you when you're down

Namjoon finishes his rap and bows to the crowd in attempt to cover up the fact that he was on the verge of tears.

"Thank you everyone. I hope that that special someone now understands how much they mean to me. And hopefully they understand that I'm sorry. Goodnight."

He exits the stage and the curtains close behind him. The lights begin to turn brighter again and the crowd starts to disperse. The couples all look at me, obviously hoping I got the message. I start crying, I just can't take it anymore. I run through the aisle of people and head straight to the bathroom.

I enter a random stall and cry, thinking about how much effort it took to make a song for me, about us. But he betrayed me when he lied about being a criminal. Then I start to remember all the times we spent together and how he always knew how to cheer me up.

Unfortunately I cry for about half an hour and wait another 10 minutes to allow the swelling in my face to go down so it's not too noticeable.

I peek out and realize no one is there so I go back in the auditorium. I need to look for my phone and call a cab because it's obvious my friends won't give me one.

I can't believe they left me, the fucktards. I find my phone in my seat when I hear my name.

"Jin."

I look around but don't see anyone so I assume it came from the speakers.

"How could you take so long? Don't you know how long I waited for you?"

The light gets brighter facing the stage and Namjoon is on there with a microphone and a bouquet of roses. My knees become weak.

"I honestly didn't think you would show up.... Does that mean you forgive me?"

"Let's get one thing straight. I was lied to and that's why I came here. I haven't forgiven you."

I start walking away but Namjoon follows. He literally drops the mike and jumps off the stage. I didn't know that he hurt his leg so much that he was limping towards me in order to catch up.

Namjoon grabs my wrist so I stop moving. "Wait please. I want to apologize." I stay in place but don't look at him. "Jin I love you so much and I'm so sorry everything happened the way it did. Believe me. I would give anything to go back in time to fix my mistakes."

"Bull shit! What exactly do you think you did wrong?" I rip my arm from his grasp and fold it over my chest, facing him now.

"I messed up when you found out-" My eyes widen and I slap him. The sound resonates in the air and Namjoon just stands there, head down. "Let me finish." His voice cracking, barely above a whisper. "When you found out the way that you did, it messed us up. I should have told you sooner, I should have trusted you. I was too scared of the consequences of you finding out, that I didn't bother to think about what would happen if you didn't hear it from me. That's why I messed up. I'm so sorry."

I want to glare at him but the fresh tears are making that difficult. "That's it? You're not going to apologize for anything else?" He searches my eyes for something but I won't let up.

"What do you want me to say-"

"I think we're done here." I turn around and leave the auditorium, approaching the main doors. My hand reaches out for the door handle but never touches it as I'm spinned around and I feel his soft lips crash into mine.

For a moment I forget all our worries, all our problems. Namjoon has that effect on me. I give in to the kiss, just a little bit, snaking my arms around his neck as he pulls me in closer. But of course, like all things, it had to end.

I pull away and was about to start yelling at him when he interrupts me. "We are both broken people that need to help each other be whole again. We are both lost in this mad universe. You are not just my world, my galaxy, and my sky. You are the blood under my skin, my bones, the pulsing in my heart and the tears in my eyes." My tears brim the edge of my eyelids as well as his.

"In the chaotic world, you make my mind even more chaotic. Sometimes, I think I'm going insane. I wake up and convince myself you are real. It seems like you are just a fragment of my imagination. You drown my mind. You suffocate me, but I can't breathe without you."

My head spins at his loving speech, pouring his heart out for me in ways I've been too scared to do. But it's not enough. He hurt me in more ways than he could imagine. "Then I hope you die." I spit at him and leave, deciding that walking home is the best option right now.

Namjoon's POV

Watching Jin leave made my heart shatter and I fall to the floor, wincing at the pain in my legs. You idiot. You jumped 9 feet to catch him. Why did you just fall?

I roll over on my back and lay there, contemplating the decisions that led me to this point.

Then I hope you die.

His words echo in my mind, bouncing off as if he was still here, mocking me.

Then I hope you die.

I scream in frustration and get up. However, I get up too fast because I get a little dizzy and walk straight into Jimin. Wait Jimin? "What are you doing here?"

He holds onto my shoulders so that I regain my balance. "I wanted to see how things went." He notices my expression dampens and he immediately consoles me, pulling me in for a hug. "That bad huh?" I nod into his shoulder and stand there in his embrace.

"Jimin he-" Then I hope you die. "He rejected me." I cry, no sob, in front of him and he runs his hand up and down my back. "He left here about a minute before you came."

He pulls back and gives me a confused look. "And you let him go?" I nod a little and he steps back. "Are you serious?" He punches me on the shoulder now.

"Ow! Yes I did!"

"You are unbelievable! I thought you loved him!"

"Yes! Of course I love him... I love him more than anything else in this whole world and there is nothing I would like better than to hold on to him forever." Then I hope you die. My eyes blink hard to fight back more tears. "But I know it's not for the best. So no matter how much my heart is going to break, I've got to let him go so he can know just how much I love him. Maybe if I'm lucky, he'll come back. But if not, I can make it through this."

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LMAOOOO SIKE! ITS NOT THE LAST CHAPTER! YOU GUYS THOUGHT.

But seriously, how did you like it? It's sooo long, almost 3 chapters.

Namjoon is such a dumbass sometimes I can't comprehend.

I REALIZED I REACHED 6K! 💕

Anyways, this was the second to last chapter so the next one is the last 😭😭😭😭 I'm going to cry.

And I didn't say this before, but how did you like the song that Jimin sang? I tried so hard to find a perfect one so I hope that was good enough. If you guys have better song options for them then tell me!

And Namjoon's rap thing was semi mine and semi quotes I got off the internet.

Question: should I do another Q&A after the last chapter or before? Or none at all?

I hope you liked this chapter. 💕 Thanks for putting up with me. Please vote? 🙏 Have a nice day lovelies! ❤️❤️❤️