?: "Did someone push her in?"

?: "Who?! I'll kill them!"

?: "No...i saw her walk in there."

?: "Was she possessed?!"

?: "She looked possessed."

(Hm? I'm not dead? Ugh, i'm such a failure i even suck at dying.)

I slowly open my eyes to the voices of familiar people. I was the whole gang gathered around my bed- wait..bed?!

(How did i end up in a bed?)

My heart still ached. I still had depression. That incident changed nothing.

They eventually saw me awake. I didn't know what to say. My throat ached as well. No more than before. I hated my voice.

Jo: "M/C..."

(He's gotten a lot nicer. He's not glaring at me.)

Richy: "M/C! What happened?!"

Ryu: "Who did this to you?!"

"I fell." I spoke in a voice which was barely audible.

Haru: "But..."

Tak: "She's possessed!"

Ichy: "Are you stupid?"

Tak: "She's pale, looks practically dead and won't talk! She's a zombie!"

Ichy: "She's probably not feeling well you idiot!"

They carried on talking among themselves not paying a single attention to me. I just closed my eyes and turned the other way with my blankets still covering me.

I had my eyes closed, yet a tear still rolled down my cheek. But they didn't see. They couldn't; as i had turned away.

Ryu: "Just ask her then!"

Haru: "I think she has a headache, we should leave her alone for now."

Richy: "M/C what happened?"

"I fell." I repeated not facing them.

Haru: "No you didn't."

"..." i didn't say anything.

Tak: "It's ok, we care you know..."

"No...you're just curious." I whispered as another tear streamed down. I refused to face them, as i was facing the wall; still on my bed with blankets wrapped around me.

They all looked at each other when they heard M/C's words. Then Jo picked up a piece of paper on M/C's desk. He skimmed through it and froze.

Ichy: "Jo...?"

Jo: "M/C...did you read this?"

I turned around to see Jo holding up the letter about my parent's death.

"!" I didn't know what to do for a few moments but ended up nodding.

Richy: "Why, what is it?!"

Jo: "Ok everyone, out." He signalled everyone to go.

They obediently left the room. Jo walked over to me and kneeled down.

Jo: "Did you really 'fall'?"

"..."

(I'm not burdening anyone else. It's bad enough i'm in this state, i'm definitely not giving anyone else my stress.)

Jo: "Um, i'm sorry...i was just really busy with the committee stuff."

"..."

Jo: "I'm sorry i left you to suffer and cope with this on your own...next time if anything happens, you tell me. Ok?" he hugged me like if i was something fragile. And at this point, i was.

"..."

(It's not just because of my parents i attempted suicide...)

Jo: "Did you try to..." it seemed like it was hard for him to say. "...drown yourself?"

I just looked down trying to avoid eye-contact.

"...i wasn't needed or wanted...by anyone...or anything...so it wouldn't of have mattered." I finally said it.

Jo: "!" his eyes watered up with guilt.

"I'm gonna sleep now." I told him quietly as i lay down once again.

[NEXT DAY - SCHOOL]

I was walking to class and the girls were still glaring at me. Haru doesn't even spend time with me anymore and i'm still getting the same treatment. It's not fair.

I went to my locker to get my books and i saw Ichigo there as well. But he was crowded by girls so he didn't notice me. Nobody noticed.

I was so quiet, the way i talked, the way i walked, everything about me was almost invisible. Just the way i liked it.

(I don't know if i'm getting a phobia...but something's definitely happening to me. Even if people look at me with no intentions of any kind, i still get really uncomfortable. I can't talk to people anymore. I don't look UP anymore...i'm always facing the floor. All the confidence i had is now gone. Every last drop of it.)

[TIME SKIP - IN CLASS]

I couldn't concentrate. I didn't eat anything from the last 3 days. Food shouldn't be wasted on someone like me anyway.

Suddenly a thought struck me.

(My parents are gone...so why hasn't Jo kicked me out? Oh i know why, he doesn't want to be rude. How long am i planning to stay with Jo anyway?)

Suicidal thoughts returned to my mind while the teacher was taking the register.

Teacher: "Naomi."

Girl: "Here!"

Teacher: "M/C."

"..."

Teacher: "Is she here?"

Boy 1: "I don't think so."

Girl 1: "I haven't seen her all day."

Haru: "Me neither..."

Teacher: "She must be ill then."

I was at the back corner of the class. I sat low in my seat and was looking down which hid my face. Every time i tried to talk, no voice came out. So i just stopped trying.

Nothing would keep in focus. I look to the wall beside me and everything was blurred for a millisecond before coming back into focus. Same thing would happen if i moved my eyes.

A tear streamed down my cheek randomly.

(I'm not sad at the minute...so why am i crying?)

Not just that, but my throat hurt. My headache was agonising. I could feel fire behind my eyes, in my skull.

Teacher: "Blah blah..."

I couldn't even understand what the teacher was saying. I could hear every word he said...but my brain just couldn't make out what he was...saying. I could hear him but at the same time i couldn't. I couldn't understand anything.

Suddenly i felt someone throw a paper ball at me. I looked to see where it came from. I looked up; first time today. I saw Takeshi staring back at me. I opened the paper ball to see he wrote a message:

'The teacher marked u absent. How long hav u been there? Your not even contributing to the lesson. This is so unlike u, what's wrong?'

I guess someone finally noticed. I just shook my head to signal that i'm fine.

'Ok.' Takeshi mouth still feeling unsatisfied with my answer, and turned around again.

I just continued staring at the blank paper in front of me, still not knowing what to write.

[TIME SKIP]

I had my head on the table in front of me and was too lost in my own thoughts to hear the bell ring for lunchtime.

Slowly everyone left apart from me. The teacher inserted some folders into his bag before seeing me.

Teacher: "!"

"..."

I didn't note him looking at me though, as i was still looking down.

Teacher: "....M/C? Is that you?" he asked a bit concerned.

"!" i glanced up with haste only to observe him looking straight at me. STRAIGHT AT ME.

Something triggered inside me and i started feeling uncomfortable again.

I got up and headed for the door to leave.

Teacher: "Wait, M/C answer me!" he called out.

"I'm fine sir." Was all that i managed to say before leaving.

I left the classroom with looking back; still facing my feet letting my hair cover my face.

I went outside and found a tree at the back of the field. No one goes there. There was shade as well. Lots of it. Perfect.

I sat down beside the tree and closed my eyes.

[TIME SKIP - 10 MINS LATER]

?: "Um that's my spot."

I opened my eyes and let my bangs and hair cover my face. It was Takeshi. And he didn't know it was me. Obviously not.

I stood up apace without a word and took a step when i heard him say my name.

Takeshi: "M/C....?"

I stopped and looked at him.

"How did you know..." i breathed quietly.

Takeshi: "I'd recognise that charm bracelet anywhere...Haru made it for you 10 years ago right?"

And damn right he was. Another tear dripped down at the thought of Haru. Takeshi wrapped his arms around me for a hug when he witnessed me hurting.

The pain in my heart and throat softened. I hugged him back seeking more comfort.