Being 19, living in the US and being abused; that's the life I live in this world. Who am I you ask,why would you care about who I am; I'm just a pathetic girl, who listens to Visual kei music. But, if you must know who I am; my name is Raven Kennedy.

I prefer to be by myself, but something about me is that I am a gothic lolita and my favorite band is Moi Dix Mois, my hero Mana-sama. Again, I live in the US which means I will probably never see them live. Or that was what I thought until today, when I found out they were coming to the US for the first time.

I was sure, that my family, and I's neighbors thought I was being violently murdered because of how much I screamed with joy; and I knew I was going to get tickets for this show. The cost I didn't care, I just needed to see my hero and listen to the worlds most beautiful band.

"RAVEN SHUT THE HELL UP!" My father screamed,before busting through my door. "IF I HEAR YOU SCREAM AGAIN, ILL GIVE YOU A REASON! DO YOU UNDERSTAND!" He yelled at me, my heart thudded in my chest. I was sure he could hear it, because of his cruel smirk.

"Y.e.ye.yes sir." I managed out, it wasn't a lie I was terrified of my father. Ever since my mother died, he's been blaming me; for five long years I've been abused mentally and physically.

"Good, now get to work. I'm sure you have some chores to do." He said, I nodded my head mad instantly regretted it. He smacked me for not answering properly. "WHAT DO YOU SAY!" He screamed in my face.

"Yes sir." I said, my face stinging, I could taste the blood on my lip. I knew this wasn't the end of the beatings for the night; but at least he was satisfied for the night, because he left.

I sighed in relief, before going back to my computer. I looked at the prices for concert tickets; and they were selling for $30, that was extremely cheep for an amazing band; but I was not complaining, however with backstage passes it cost $50. But, I am worthy I will bay the extra 20 if it meant I got to meet Mana-sama.

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It was the night of the concert, changing into the only Moi Meme Moite lolita on piece I own. It was black with white lace around the skirt. It was simple yet beautiful, I curled my long black hair, before putting it into pig tails. Light black eye makeup, and black lipstick.

When I was done, I quickly yet quietly snuck out my window. Hoping my dad wouldn't come into my bedroom during the night, with that thought I walked to the concert. Proud that I'm doing something for me, for the first time.