05/31/16
I'm dying.
Not from particularly anything but my mind.
I can't get these thoughts out of my head.
I've felt so overwhelmed and want everything to stop. Why can't I stop thinking? Why is the thought of relasping shredding up my ability to contain myself? Just why?
Its been four months since I've self harmed....... but I'm sorry..... I have to...... They've won.
I'm just a slave to my thoughts and clouds of emotions.
I feel like I'm gonna pass out from my mix of Anxiety and Depression. The spirits keep telling me nobody cares for me, that I'm just a stupid nobody who can be replaced with a quick second.
I'm sorry...... but I just can't stop the thoughts....
I love you baby girl but everything that has happened for a long while is crushing me.
Goodnight......

Kai