It's no use going back to yesterday, because I was a different person then.

– Lewis Carroll, Alice's Adventures in Wonderland

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I fell to the floor crying. I started crying over everything that had happened. Over Zach, over the person inside my head, over all the tests I would have to make up, over my parents, over my life, over everything that had ever happened to me.

Warm arms wrapped around me, pulling me closer. Arms I had slept and cried in so many times.

"Shhhh, it's ok Elise. Everything is going to be ok. Shhhh." He whispered. His fingers laced through mine. I dug my head in his shirt.

"I'm sorry." I whispered.

"Elise it's ok. It's going to be ok." Zach said.

"It's not though. It's not because I can't love you." I whispered as I was still wrapped up in his arms. I said the words so softly that he didn't hear. So softly, that he might have the thought of thinking we were good.

"Elise, what about-" Zach started before I started speaking over him.

"I miss you so much, but I can't be with you now. I can't." I told him. His shoulders seemed to drop a little.

"I. I understand." He said. I pushed away from him and he stood up. He left my apartment, closing the door behind him.

I stayed on the floor crying, wondering why I even bothered sticking around.

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Author's Note

I'm actually writing this book pretty quickly, cause it has short chapters. Though I'm not punishing as quickly.

Zach is a sweetheart. Honestly characters like Zach are reasons why I don't have a boyfriend.

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