"Yoongi, listen to this," you clear your throat, prepared to read out the most ridiculous thing you had ever seen since you saw that dumbass Jungkook mazz off to a drought inducing porno. "Do you know Big John?"

Yoongi looks up from his book. "No, should I?"

"Well, put your belt on then. I'm about to take you on a crazy ride Min Yoongi'" you clear your throat, readjusting yourself against Jungkook's headboard. "Big John is a 25 year old Pornstar from America and says he got into porn because "it became an outlet for the struggles of my reality and the idea of submerging myself into a world that both pays the bills and liberates me, is pretty fucking awesome." When he isn't gallivanting in the art of the clitoris, he dabbles in anal play in the neighbourhood boys series voted for best orgy series in the 2016 AVN awards."

"Why are you telling me this?" Yoongi stares blankly at you. "I thought you weren't interested in sex or pornstars?"

"First of all, pornstars have the most interesting lives but let me tell you the rest before I go into it Yoongi. John here, is pretty new to the biz but states that among his favourite scenes, the one he did with Rachel Love called "Eat, suck, fuck." was the most invigorating experience he has ever had. Lucky live viewers watched Rachel, AVN 2017 Performer of the year, give the 6-foot 2 beast a blow job while eating a banana nutella sandwich. John recalls that his interest in food kink is a direct result of that particular scene. Next on the cards, John says, "I want to work more with kink. I think it's great I can have a chance to really explore myself and to liberate these chains that try to control me."

Jungkook opens his door with his foot, carrying both his laptop and a bowl of chips into his room. "What are you saying about blow jobs and food?" he asks, putting his computer on the bed and the bowl of chips on the night stand.

"I was just telling Yoongi about big John. The pornstar from last week..."

"Oh." Is all Jungkook says before shoving you and Yoongi apart, squeezing into the middle.

"Yah Yoongi. Were you listening?" You look up from your phone and over Jungkook, frowning at his lack of interest. "Listen! In terms of everything else John likes, he identifies that his all time favourite thing about working as a porn star is: "Honestly, being able to eat a lot of pussy. I love eating and fucking. Pussy on my mind. Pussy all the time."

"So?" he grunts, seemingly uncaring of your recount of the strangest bio you have ever read.

"Yoongi," you frown, looking up from your phone to the boy beside you. "This is priceless, did you not hear what I just said?"

"What?" Yoongi looks up at you, brow raised. "What are you talking about?"

"I was listening." Jungkook quips, getting angry at the lack of attention he was receiving tonight. "You can talk to me now instead of him."

"Shut up Jungkook, I'm talking to stone face," you muster, shoving his shoulder with yours. "Big John likes it when girls eat and suck his penis! How fucking crazy stupid is that?"

"So stupid," Jungkook admits to deaf ears. "I don't like the idea of hurting or putting someone's wellbeing in jeopardy you know? It's not hot."

Yoongi snort laughs. "I don't usually kink shame but is that even possible? How big is her mouth? Because it must be massive or this porn clip is non-existent. Actually, you know what? I'm sorry but that's impossible, I refuse to believe that can be done."

Dipping your hand into the bowl of chips between you, you nod. "I think she just took small bites ...according to this site, it's his kink. Apparently it increases stimulation but I don't understand how that is even possible either," throwing your phone at the end of the bed, you sink underneath Jungkook's blankets as you shove the chips into your mouth. "Ssounds ffucking stupid to me, you've got a blood sword crammed down your throat and then you're eating food, further reducing the patency of your airway. Sounds like a choking hazard."

"Wait," Jungkook stares at your profile beside him. "How are you so calm talking about this? Who the hell are you and where is my Y/N?"

"I gave her a sip of my beer and suddenly she flies off on her conservative rocket and into the pearly white stars of oral sex and porn star biography content like a crazed porn addict."

"Shut the fuck up Yoongi, it's like watching buzzfeed unsolved on this site. Once you start reading one, you gotta read the rest. Did you know that there are kpop idols on here too? And apparently near death experiences while sucking the D is a common delicacy on this menu among them," You laugh, looking up at Jungkook. "Imagine if I died doing that to you Jungkook and paramedics had to tell my grandparents that I died from eating and sucking your dick."

"I can't imagine that at all." he gulps, watching you swallow your food. It's gross but he can't help but imagine exactly that occurring -not the death of you, the blowjob happening of course.

You continue. "I can imagine what my sister would say-" staring off into the distance you deepen your voice for effect, "-living the dream sis, hope you're sucking dick and eating in Heaven." jesus, and then my mother would say. "She wasn't that much of a multitasker anyway, should've just stuck to eating in the shower"

"Hold up," Jungkook says, pushing his computer between you and laying on his side. "You eat in the shower?"

Rolling your eyes, you turn to face him. "Of course I do, optimum time management."

Yoongi nods his head, appreciating the idea. Maybe he should start doing that to so he can sleep in longer. "What do you eat? Toast?"

You shake your head. "Up and Go, sometimes yoghurt with banana."

Jungkook stares out into the distance. "That is a genius idea."

"Thanks, I'm filled with those, especially lately."

"How did you even come across that article anyway?" he asks, laughing as he turns to face you, propping his head up with his hand. "I thought you strictly avoided sexual content?"

You stare at him in thought. "I guess I was just interested and I'm not embarrassed around you and Yoongi and I think we can talk about anything together ...unless what I am saying right now makes you feel uncomfortable... did it?"

Shaking his head, Jungkook flicks your forehead. "Nothing could make me feel uncomfortable around you. We've had poop chills, that's like breaking the seal in a friendship."

Nodding your head, you smile bashfully. "That make my hearts flutter, you ugly mole rat, ah! I could just squeeze you!" you squeal, launching yourself onto him. Digging your arms under his back, you wrap your arms around him and your feet around his hips.

Yoongi makes a tsking noise before shouting. "You're going to spill the popcorn you assholes. Stop fucking beside me, oh my god. I want to fucking leave."

"Then go Yoongi, I'll see you tomorrow!" Jungkook says, staring up at you awkwardly. "What are you doing Y/N?" Jungkook asks, feeling uncomfortable with the way you were adjusting yourself on top of him.

"You just make me feel all squishy." Rubbing your face on his collarbone. Jungkook laughs softly before wrapping his arms around your neck.

"You're so weird Y/N," he says, swaying your body off of his groin so that your belt buckle didn't dig into his goods. "But okay."

"God, you smell heavenly." you comment, dropping your weight on him. "Why do boys smell so good? Do you smell good too Yoongi?"

"I assure you, I smell like shit. Keep smelling Jungkook," Yoongi closes his book loudly before swinging his feet off the bed. "I guess I'll head off now, want to get some work done in the studio before sunrise. See you rats tomorrow."

You both watch Yoongi leave, still wrapped up in each other. It was nice being like this but now that Yoongi had gone and it was just you two, it was weird.

Carting his fingers through your hair, he lightly massages your scalp. "I'm not even wearing cologne, so whatever you're smelling is my natural scent."

Shifting up his body, you nuzzle your nose into his neck before laying there. You could hear the loud beating of heart and the heat radiating off his body comforted you in the cold. "I'm not even going to dignify that cockiness with a response that would validate your ego. You smell reassuring was what I meant."

Staring at the ceiling above, he holds you close when a weird electric feeling zips suddenly throughout his body. He doesn't know what to call it but it's there and you're on it. "This is nice."

You hum your response, feeling comfort flood and straighten out the knots of stress around your body. "It is."

"Y/N," Jungkook whispers, feeling unsure whether to ruin the moment with a question that he knows will make you feel uncomfortable but decides to anyway. "Have you ever thought about having sex with me one day?"

You stiffen ontop of him, before lifting your head to look at him. "What."

He lets you go as you softly lay beside him.

"I mean, yeah I have since last time but why?"

"I was just wondering if you were normal because I've been thinking recently...." Jungkook's smile falters as he makes eye contact with you.

"About?"

"Letting you learn about sex by having it with me," he musters with a straight face and the intensity of his glare tightens around your heart. "You won't have to feel embarrassed about anything either. I know you like Yoongi more but we're close enough right?"

"Who the hell said I liked Yoongi more?" you say, not entirely sure how one is supposed to respond to something like that.

"I thought it was obvious?" he remarks, feeling his pulse rate go up.

"Hell no, do you see me crawling all over Yoongi?"

He shakes his head. "Oh."

"Good, get that out of your head. Look about the sex thing, I'm definitely not ready to have sex yet but I'll let you know when I want to?" you say, grabbing your phone from the end of the bed.

"That's fine," he nods. "I can accept that."

"Lol bitch, you will accept whatever is given to you regardless. Don't give me that attitude."

He laughs as you turn back to your phone. "I was just offering my help since it's something I know you'll be thinking about when you're on a bus alone and you're listening to Beautiful and staring out the window."

Rolling your eyes, you stammer. "I've only seen your penis once Jungkook, the thought of it being inside me actually kind of terrifies me."

"I mean, we can start off slow... oral sex? If that is something you're comfortable exploring?"

You blush several shades of pink.

"I can eat you out too, I think it's fair if there is a mutual thing going on. Who knows, you might even like it."

You nod your head. You didn't want to admit that you didn't know what eating out meant, you'd save that for a quick google on the toilet later. "Thank you Jungkook."

"What do you think?"

Silence festers between you as you scroll through your social media to avoid his question and Jungkook looks back at his computer in understanding, pulling it back onto his stomach. It was just another late night hang at his house but things hadn't been the same since your masterbating event last time.

Sure, your conversations were definitely more stimulating, you didn't have to pretend to be interested in what Jungkook was saying, he just seemed more interesting now. But it was something beneath the skin that made you feel like something had been added to your dynamic.

Or had ruined it.

You weren't sure anymore.

Who really cares anyway.

If the camera of your life panned out bird's eye view, the screen would be filled of your lazy ass next to his lazy ass in a platonic bed sharing space with several question marks above your head:

1. Interest in sex had changed you, and you weren't sure if it was a bad or a good thing.
2. You feel dirty, as though the clean white sheets of your world had stained with the darkest colours of forbidden fruit
3. Would there be romance if Jungkook decided to pursue you? If you let him? And why does that scare you if it does?

But as you watch Jungkook close his computer in frustration and lean in closer to you impatiently wanting for a response, you can't help but think of a collision of all three:

Sex.
With.
Jungkook.

"I want to fuck you, if you let me," He says, dropping his hand on your stomach. "And I want you to fuck me too."

"Oh, christ...church."