hey akane-san,

it has been 2 years since inupi and i bid farewell. we haven't met each other again, not even a single call or text. it has been so long, i'm starting to miss his voice. in the past, his laugh really made my day. as you know, he isn't the kind of person who laughs a lot, but when he does, i am totally mesmerized.

i wonder how he looks like now. maybe he has let his hair grow. he used to insist on cutting it every time it grew out, even just one centimeter. he said that long hair is too inconvenient and hinders his eyesight. as if i would believe that, but i didn't question him any longer. there are things better left unsaid, and we are both aware of that. i hate inupi's long hair, as much as he did. those golden strains, they are just too alike. but now that i'm gone, i guess there is no reason for him to keep cutting it anymore.

mikey disbanded toman and created a new gang: kanto manji, which i'm currently a member of. we are the only gang in tokyo and one of the most powerful ones. following mikey is like betting on the winning horse. that's why i'm happy with my decision. mikey, kanto manji, i can make a lot of money from them.

inupi, he has walked a completely different path from mine. while i continue to immerse myself in money, it seems like he has retired from the delinquent world, which i'm glad to know. that dumbass should find something else to do besides fighting all day. i heard he is running a bike shop with draken now, which really suits him. motorbikes is one of his great passions. back in the days we used to stay in shinichirou's old store, he would ramble about motorcycles tirelessly. i'm never a big fan of them, don't even know how to turn on the engine. moreover, inupi has always dreamt of owning a bike shop like shinichirou.

have i told you about mikey and draken's relationship? they used to be inseparable but after disbanding toman, mikey pushed every single one of his friends away, including draken. sounds familiar, right? i guess mikey and i are both alike in that aspect. it's kinda ironic how i'm with mikey and inupi and draken are together now.

inupi chose a good person.

i'm truly happy for him. he has found himself wonderful friends who love and see him as seishu, not as someone else. hanagaki and draken, i'm thankful for them. they have done what i couldn't do, and i don't know if i possibly can. being with them, inupi can finally realize his self-worth, that he is seishu inui, that he is good enough, that he is beautiful, precious and deserves to live, happily. me, what can i do for him? i only caused him pain and suffering.

such a terrible friend i am. i truly doesn't deserve him.

do you remember that time when inupi said that he would sacrifice himself for my sake? i used to think it was such a ridiculous way of thinking. i still think of it that way.

but you know what akane-san?

now, i don't think he would die for me anymore.