I'm sorry again that I haven't written in so long. It's been almost a month. I don't have much to say, but I thought that I should write something.

Things have gotten better. I've been spending a lot of time with Maya, she always knows how to make me laugh when I'm not feeling good. Last week she could tell that I was upset, just by looking at me, so we went to the park again and laid on a blanket and read to each other until we got bored and started reading in funny voices and finally I was smiling and laughing like I hadn't even been sad in the first place. I don't know what I'd do without her.

I really hope that she doesn't get tired of me. I try to stay as positive as I can when I'm with her but I can understand if my negativity is draining. I wouldn't want to date myself.

I hate to sound cheesy and cliche, but I think Maya is changing me for the better. Yeah, I still get sad sometimes but I'm not nearly as bad as I was last year. She radiates positivity and happiness and I can't help but smile every time her name crosses my mind. When I get in a bad mood I just have to think about her and I'm able to calm myself down. I haven't had a breakdown in weeks.

I hope she knows how much she means to me. Even though we're dating now I still feel like I don't talk much, I think maybe Maya doesn't know that I care about her more than she'll ever know. She keeps me sane, she keeps me at peace, she keeps me stable, and I will forever be grateful.

I think I love her.

It sounds stupid because I've only know her for a short amount of time, but I know I love her.

Maybe not in a romantic way. I'm not in love with her. Right now I just love her for being such a good friend to me before anything else, for treating me like I'm normal even though I have so much shit going on in my head.

I just hope I don't do something stupid to mess everything up.

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Oh my God I actually forgot that I still hadn't completed this story and that's why I left it for a year

Let me know if you want me to continue, because I love this plot and will definitely write more! If not I'll just wrap this story up in a few more chapters and be done with it :)