Just do it!

I sighed as I looked out my bedroom window. I had a crush on one of the guys at school, and he has no idea. I'm not that beautiful, popular girl at school. At least, I wasn't sure if I was beautiful or not. I've been told I am but I don't believe it. Today was a normal day just like any other day. When I first found out that I had a crush on one of the boys at my school, I thought I was going crazy, I still feel like that, really.

Maybe it's because I've never felt this before. Which, I haven't until this year.

"Was it worth falling in love?" I would always ask myself this question. I never dated before or felt this kind of love before. I've felt family love before though.

I sighed again. I made up my mind, I'm going to face him and tell him my feelings.

"I can do this! I believe I can!" I smiled a bit to myself feeling more confident. It felt better for me to tell myself this out loud.

My name is Carlie Johnson, and I'm 15 years old. I have a hard time talking to people, especially if I like guys, and I get very embarrassed and nervous. I also tend to blush a lot sometimes. Why, you might ask? Mostly because I don't want to seem desperately wanting something. Like attention or a boyfriend.

Or if someone was complementing me with something. I don't let it get it into my head. I'm not used to attention as well. So I would tend to blush a lot. Of course I would say 'thanks' or whatever kind words to say back to the people, because I like to be nice. I rather be nice than rude and, I don't want to act like I'm the best person in the whole world. Which I'm not the best person in the whole world.

I'm just me. That's all I want to be.