Felicity's POV.

My nightmare was the worst thing I could have ever lived through, it was of my first time. The pain I went through and knowing no one will stop it. After, I had felt dead inside. I had only been twelve-years-old, at the age I am now I realize just how horrific it really was. At such a young age your body has hardly even fully developed, I remember it feeling as though someone was tearing me apart from the inside out.

Now being raped at the age of twenty-two is not as excruciating as it was then. Yes, the pain is still there and I know this time will also haunt my dreams, to have had multiple men do it to you is even worse! How could he have allowed this? Why did he allow it? Has he just forgotten how wrong it is or maybe he just doesn't want to face the truth?

Either way I just let the numbness wash over me and try to deal with the pain on my own, no one would believe me anyway if I told them what happened last night due to my status as the pack slut. They would think I was doing it for attention, to stir up pity in their hearts. Well, I've given up trying to show people who I really am. They would only look at me as if I were the boy who cried wolf.

I decide I need to wash this feeling of dirtiness off me. I get up, grab my towel and head to the shower.

As I'm showering a feeling of panic and disgust begins to wash over me. My chest begins to tighten and I gasp for breath, I scrub my skin hard trying to rub off the filth my mind has conjured up, and slowly I begin to lose my sense of reality. I cry out and begin to hit and scratch myself. "Why am I not getting any cleaner!?", I yell and sob. As my episode slowly abates I look down at myself to see my skin is rubbed raw and I've got deep scratches in my arms and legs. I hiss in pain as the water washes into my freshly made marks, blood leaks from my wounds. I put down the wash cloth and quickly wash my hair.

As I step out of the shower I grab a towel and wrap it around me. I slowly open the door a crack and peak inside my room. No one is there, I cautiously step out of the bathroom and check my room for any unwanted visitors. I see no one is around, so I walk to my closet and begin to get dressed.

After I'm completely dressed I walk back to my bed and relax to watch some T.V. I look at the time to see it is 4:30pm, Warren and I's class should be ending in fifteen minutes so hopefully by then he will call me.

At 5:06 I get a phone call. I pick it up and hear Warren's voice on the other end, "Hey baby, I hope I didn't wake you. How was your nap?"

I laugh, "No, no, you didn't wake me. I just finished having a shower, and now I'm just relaxing."

"Hmm, to bad I wasn't there to share it with you.", for some reason I get this inkling he isn't speaking the truth. It almost sounds as though he didn't mean what he said and is trying to fake sincerity.

"Hah, well enough about my uneventful time at home, tell me about your day. How was school without me? Boring I hope!", I giggle.

"Oh, ugh...well nothing happened too much. I just went to all of our classes, grabbed the homework we have to do, and then came home. That was it, not too much happened and it definitely was not as eventful as yours." Warren laughs at his own lame joke.

I couldn't understand why I didn't trust his words, he was hiding something from me but I knew he wouldn't tell me. I guess I'll just have to wait and see when I return to school.

*****

I get up out of my car after pulling into the school parking lot. Today I chose to dress a little casual, well my sense of casual. I'm wearing white jean shorts and a shirt that has spaghetti straps, this shirt is white with light brown and gold strips designed as the strips of a tiger. It comes with padding in the chest area so I don't have to wear a bra, they feel so....free!

I see Warren talking to Dan the Beta of the pack and walk over to them. Warren seems a little nervous as I walk over to him, as he turns to look at me I see regret in his eyes but it disappears and is replaced with a happy glow that is only ever directed at me.

"Hey babe, I missed you when you weren't here yesterday. The whole day was boring without you. How are you feeling?", Warren asks me.

"I'm better, just feeling a little off." Yesterday I missed only three classes, our Psychological class is split in two days Tuesdays's and Thursday's. We also had Sociology of the Family and some boring class about Organic Chemisty or something like that. No offense to those who like it, it's just not my cup of tea. Heck, I don't even really know what it's about! Considering I missed the first day, it just sounds really boring.

"Well know that you're with me you'll feel better", he says as he winks at me.
I roll my eyes, "alright there Bucko, hold your horses. You're getting ahead of yourself."

He grabs my hand and all three of us begin to walk to our next class. Today we have a three hour class on Anatomy. It's cool but weird at the same time because we will be working with cadavers in this class. For those of you who do not know what a cadaver is, it's a dead body that someone donated to science.

We walk in and find some seats in the back. This room is an auditorium where three hundred students can sit and learn. The reason for this is because there are many different programs in this class. Tomorrow we will also be moving into a lab room for workinging with the bodies. They're already set up and we just learn from looking at the bodies and examining them.

Today's first lecture was on the muscles of the human body! Yay! I love learning about the body and how it works.

As I try to focus I start getting distracted and end up overhearing a conversation between two girls sitting in the front of the room, using the pack link. They obviously had no idea others were able to listen in.

"Did you hear what happened yesterday?"

"No, what?"

"Well I was walking to my second class of the day and on my way I saw the Alpha talking to his mate!"

"Are you sure? Didn't he reject her for the pack slut?"

"Yeah, but man you should have seen them! They looked pretty cozy to me! He had his arms around her and everything. Huh, I wonder if the slut know she's losing her man to his mate? It seems like the mate pull is already working, honestly I'm surprised that he was able to fight it off this long!"

"Yeah, seriously! She's lived longer than expected. Wouldn't her wolf begin to weaken from the rejection?"

I slightly growl under my breath, I see their heads suddenly snap in my direction. Whoops, seems like I growled louder than I thought.

"Well, seems like we accidentally just told her." One of the females links to the other, the other girl just nods slightly in response as their eyes connect with my fuming ones.

Now I know why Warren had that guilty look in his eyes this morning. He's not going to escape this situation that easy. I turn to him and see him focusing on the teacher at the front of the room realizing that he didn't over hear the conversation as I did, as he begins to feel my glare he turns his head to look into my eyes. I see a flicker of fear flash in his eyes. He knows he's been caught.

Hey everyone! Here's the next chapter!

Fun fact! I myself had actually taken an anatomy course in college a couple years ago and decided to write from experience...not that I did too well in the course. Haha

I hope you're all liking my book thus far! Comment and let me know what you think. I tried to get any mistakes out but it's hard to catch everything. Let me know if you see anything!

-Viorra is signing out!