before we get this chapter rolling, i wanna try out something! so, get 2 tabs open for youtube. in one tab, find the song 'LUNA' from the final fantasy 15 soundtrack and in the other tab, find 'song of stars' from the same ff15 soundtrack. you're gonna need these 2 songs later on if you want the true emotional wreckage.

thank you! you don't have to, i just felt like trying it with you guys~

- cute-namjoonie ♡

[jimin's pov]

a hot flush ran over my face as i angrily closed the message, blind rage and jealousy simmering and bubbling beneath my skin. letting out a sharp sigh, i ran a hand through my hair and carried on walking towards the convenience store - this time with a different shopping list in mind.

the man at the counter greeted me with a soft hello and a slight nod. i hummed back in reply and headed to the alcohol section, curious eyes glancing over all of the amber bottles, followed by the gleaming emerald champagne that had the signature gold foil encased around the middle. the stench of bleach made my head spin a little bit, making me laugh bitterly at how much worse it would be tomorrow morning. i gripped onto a 6 pack of beer and grabbed two bottles of more beer for me and junghyun, strolling over to the cashier and handing him the alcohol. he chuckled lightly, scanning the beer and placing them into the cerulean bag with a messy print of the shop's logo and name. 

"14.75, please," the cashier mentioned, friendly eyes meeting mine. i rummaged through the depths of my pocket, awkward silence filling the store. i let out a broken laugh as my hand felt for a note, pulling out the bill and handing it to the man. 

"rough day?" he pondered, handing back the change, resting his arm atop the till and smiling widely. i locked eyes with him again, feeling a sudden pang of nausea in my stomach.

"ah, yeah... it's... complicated," i mumbled, nails scratching the back of my neck in an attempt to make my mind wander away from the video. the cashier laughed, tilting his head and pushing the bag with my drinks towards me. i gripped onto the plastic, lifting it up and hearing the melodic chiming of the cans and bottles hitting together. with a wave, i left the shop, heart slightly lighter than before.

[jungkook's pov]

i grinned, tongue finding my way inside another woman's mouth. the tang of alcohol mixed with the smoky flavour that remained thick in my mouth. she giggled when we pulled apart, her red lips smudged from the intense making out. i gripped onto her thighs, pulling them apart and smirking when she let out a soft yelp. i kissed up the side of her neck, sucking on the soft skin below her ear, feeling her arms wrap around my neck tighter. my black t-shirt stank of sweat from the earlier dancing and the uncomfortable warmth from other people's body heat. 

her gasps and moans became louder and worse as my actions increased, my hands finding more and more bare skin, savouring the feeling under my fingertips. she muttered something, but my mind was too hazy to process anything; drunkenness fuelling my every move; anger singeing my every kiss; regret soaking in every bite.

she laughed as she moved her hips closer to mine, body parts moving in disgusting synchronised movements. my eyes remained shut, heart thrumming and shattering with each beat.

"jungkook.. mmf," she mumbled.

"jimin ah - fuck, fuck, sorry i mean't," i tried, breaking away from her completely. her eyes filled rage and her hand came to meet my face with a harsh slap, her heel digging into my stomach as she kicked me off of her, forcing me to land on my ass in a drunken heap.

"fuck," i whispered, shaking my head and massaging my wound. i looked up at the ceiling and sighed.

i should... i should see jimin.

[jimin's pov]

[i have a small request here. please find the song 'LUNA' from final fantasy 15 and start playing it on loop from now to the next song request]

the sky had darkened significantly, blues and purples swirling and dancing across the vast expanse. small specks of stars cluttered the sky, the head of the sun still illuminating the evening. the trees had all been tattooed with the crimsons and oranges of the sky, wisps of wind carrying away stray leaves that littered the floor. the roads were silent and the heavy darkness rested on my shoulders like a thick blanket. the intimidating peacefulness was suddenly interrupted by a soft buzzing in my pocket. 

message from junghyun

open? [x] [o]

when will you be back? found some snacks in the cupboard. don't stay out for too long, it's getting cold out.

-j

i felt the overwhelming anxiety fill up inside my chest, eyes watering and brimming with tears. i glanced up at the endless space above me, wishing for the night to swallow me up. 

"how can you be so kind to someone like me?" i whispered, tears slipping from the corners of my eyes and running down my cheeks. my hands - shaking - rose up to slightly cover my mouth, index finger slipping into my mouth and stopping the choked out cries from spilling into the empty air.

[please find the song 'song of stars'from final fantasy 15 and start playing it on loop from now to the end of the chapter]  

"please god, please. let this madness end. i don't even know where to place my love. who should i love? who am i allowed to love? is there someone for me? anyone? let it end. it hurts. it hurts so much; please... let this stop," i whispered weakly, feeling my body convulse with the emotional pain. i gripped onto the bag of alcohol tighter, knuckles turning white with the intense grip. i let my eyes close, heart sinking deeper. i let out a stilted sigh, shaking my head and lowering it to look at the wide open space around me, the long road back home enticing me to follow it back to safety. 

i sighed, heart defeated and settled uneasily in my chest. my legs were heavy as i trod over to cross the road, my mind foggy and disorientated.

"c'mon jimin, junghyun's waiting at home," i muttered to myself bitterly still allowing my sluggish legs to lead me home. the pavement crunched hollowly beneath my shoes, sending goosebumps running along my skin. i glanced up to see the street lights illuminate, sighing when i felt another buzz from my phone, promising myself to read it. i pulled out my phone as my foot hit the edge of the sidewalk, noticing that the message was from jungkook. i frowned angrily, crossing the road before hearing an abrupt car horn.

i let out a yell, before feeling the impact of the vehicle send a numbing pain rippling throughout my body, sending my phone flying from my hands. my head made a resounding crack, an unfamiliar warmth seeping and sticking to my hair. 

the pop and fizz followed by the clatter of broken bottles.

the sound of a familiar voice screaming. the ringing in my ears, the pounding of my heart, the warmth of another person

the cold sensation of my own body.

.

.

.

"please... oh god, no... all i wanted was... to see you. fuck, jimin, hey! open your eyes, goddamn it. open your fucking eyes - ah - open..."

i'm not dead. i'm very much here. out with another chapter that might sting a bit. heads up! it's going downhill from here! hope you guys didn't miss me too much, and if you did, hi, how are ya? you don't need to miss me anymore, i'm right here. * pat pat* 

also what did you guys think of the whole song thing? i might keep doing that because idk you can see what songs inspire me to write what mood, how the songs influence the scenes, scenery, emotions etc etc. drop a comment of what you thought! and what you'll think will happen next...

see you next time!

- cute-namjoonie ♡