*A/N this chapter gets steamy. *
Also, since I won't be able to post for about two weeks, I made this chapter extra long! So enjoy!

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I tossed and turned in bed that night.

My head was dreaming. And it was a very good dream.

Laying down in my bed, covered in my sheets. A guy kissing my neck. Moving his hands down my body and past my stomach and along my thigh. I smiled as his hands moved further down and moved closer to my inner thigh.

Kissing neck, nibbling on it, then moving down. Kissing my collarbone, my breasts, he squeezed them and laying soft kisses on them. Making them run down my stomach and stopping just above my centre. He kissed my thighs, moving up my legs and into the inner thigh. I moaned with pleasure as his lips hit the right spot.

I grip the sheets of my bed tighter as this gets better and better. His tongue doing all the work, making me scream and moan. I could my insides tightening. This was amazing is all I could think.

I screamed as his glided his finger in and used his tongue on my wet centre.

"Holy mother of drag..." I moaned out as he entered. I couldn't finish the sentence.

My thighs squeezed and I was mesmerised by this. I closed my eyes trying to feel everything happening. His fingers were moving and his tongue was incredible. I was panting and trying to keep it together. But it wasn't enough. I moaned out some noise.

"Oh fuck!" I muttered.

My body rose up and I was smiling. I gripped the sheets tighter and I could feel my insides and liquid coming out.

His tongue and lips glided back up my body, kissing my stomach and to my breasts. Up my neck and to my lips before laying sweet kisses on them.

"Did you like that?" His voice was sexy and husky.

I open my eyes slowly to see someone. And it's not Henry.

Phillip.

My eyes up quickly and I fling up in my sheets. I pant heavily. Clutching onto the sheets and looking around my room.

No one in my room but me. I look under the sheets and reveal that I am naked under here. I move my hand down to my centre. I'm completely wet.

"Fuck!' I Mutter to myself. I crash back into my pillows and sigh heavily.

~~**~~

I wondered downstairs slowly two days later. I've been cooped up in my room reading books and doing paperwork with Jonathon. But all I wanted to do is get some fresh air, even if it was freezing outside and snowing.

I needed to clear my head and get rid of that very sexual dream of Phillip. Which I didn't want in my head in the first place.

I had jeans on, a thermal long sleeved black top on. And a cream coloured cable knit turtleneck jumper on. I had black gumboots on with thick wool socks and a beanie on my head. I walked down the stairs slowly and towards the back door where the cupboard with our coats were located. I opened it and grabbed out a black wool coat which I brought from Dangerfield in Melbourne. I wrapped that around myself and hugged on tight. I pulled out black leather gloves, placed them on and finding my Gryffindor scarf in the cupboard as well.

Wrapping the scarf around my neck, I opened the back door gently and stepped out into the front porch.

I could now see through the next glass door it was white and clean. Freshly laid snow and picture perfect weather.

I gripped the handle and wonder outside into the freezing cold Ireland weather. I took one step out onto the snowed land. My gumboots squished the snow and fell a bit under. The snow covered my gumboots. I held onto my coat as I walked out into the gardened.

It was beautiful out here.

Snow covered every single part of the garden. Trees that were once green and brown are now white. The rose bushes are a covered in it.

This would be an amazing location for a fashion spread shoot, I thought to myself.

"Yeah it would be,"

That wasn't my voice. Crap. I must have said that out loud. I turned my head and saw Phillip sitting on a bench surrounded by the snow covered rose bushes.

"Phillip," I take a step away from him. "What are you doing out here?"

"I could ask you the same thing, Isla."

"Touche" I nod my head and turn myself around and start to walk away.

"I'm sorry," He said.

But I kept on walking away from him.

"Sorry, ain't going to cut it, Phillip!" I reply walking away and wondering around the garden, going further and further away from him and the house.

I kept on walking away from him.

I found a nice and quite bench under a big tree, with a few cherry blossoms surrounding it. I sat down and stared out at everything. I took deep breathes and looked down at the ground.

"Calm down. Deep breathes!" I repeated to myself over and over again.

I'm in some pain. My breathing wasn't right and my chest was hurting. I placed my hands on my stomach and started counting to myself slowly. "One... Two... Three... Four... Five... Six..."

I started to calm down when I reached ten.

Tears were slowly coming down my cheeks.

"Why am I constantly crying?" I ask myself. I giggle to myself. "This is ridiculous!"

A few more tears dropped and I wiped them away. I haven't cried so much since mums funeral last year. Even then I was holding it in and keeping a brave face. I didn't want to cry in front of people.

But now, my emotions and tears were just battling each other and I've seem to be crying more in these past few months than I didn't in my 26 years of living. Don't get me wrong, at least I know I actually have a heart and I have working tear ducts. But still, I feel like I'm crying way too much.

I hold back the tears and sniffle a little. The breeze picks up around the tree and blows some snow on top of me.

I smile as this happens. I've always loved snow. I love winter.

"I've missed your smile," Phillips voice came into hearing distance of me.

I turn away and try to avoid him.

"Don't pretend you didn't hear me Isla," He moves closer to me, "Please don't ignore me Isla. I miss you."

I get up slowly offt he bench. I wobble a little from my gumboots. Phillip rushes over. I shrug him off and start to walk away from him.

"Please Isla, talk to me."

I choose to ignore him and walk off. I take a few steps forward before finding a slippery rock and I, of course, slip on it.

Phillip rushes over and catches me. He pulls me closer to him and wipes the hair away from my face. I close my eyes and breath. I concentrate on me breathing.

"Isla, are you ok?" He asks.

"I'm fine Phillip." I push him off of me and wipe my coat. "I'm just fine." I mutter to myself before trying to walk away from him.

"Isla, please talk to me? I'm sorry. I didn't mean to push you off of me. It just happened!"

"It just happened?" I questions him. I slowly turned around, now looking him int he eye. I stared down at the snow. "It just happened? Seriously Phillip. how the fuck did it just happen? You saw Henry and I kiss and then you go and beat the living daylights out of him. And I some how manage to still get hurt in the process. Phillip, I'm thankful for you saving me from the car crash. But I'm not accepting your apology for shoving me out of the way. How can I trust you won't hurt me again?"

I was fuming. I finally looked up at Phillip. He had tears coming from his eyes.

"What's wrong?" I ask him. I cross my arms over my chest and wait for an answer.

"I didn't mean to hurt you. I swear that was never my intention Isla. I care so much about you Isla, I would never intend to hurt you!" He wipes the tears away.

I haven't seen a grown man cry in so long. I think I saw my dad cry when I was in the hospital. But that was because I was in hospital.

Men confuse me.

"It will take a lot more than an apology, Phillip." I walk up to him slowly. Trying not to slip and slide around the place. "And it's going to take some time."

And with that I walk off back to the estate.

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"Where have you been?" Henry rushes over to me and kisses me on the lips when I enter through the back door.

"I went for a walk around the estate. I need some fresh air." I start taking off my gloves.

"I'm just glad you are alright. I thought you might have passed out somewhere."

I giggled at him. I kissed his cheek gently.

"You're adorable when you're worried about me." I slowly make my way to the cupboard, taking off my coat in the mean time. I hang it up, taking my scarf off and hanging that up as well. A pair of hands glide in from behind and onto y waist. A familiar pair of lips kiss my neck.

"And you my dear are too cold for my liking!" Henry whispers in my ear. I giggle.

"And that is because I've been outside. Unlike someone in the comfort of this very warm house.

Henry kisses my neck gently. "Maybe we should move this upstairs?"

"You know the doctors orders Mr." I turn around and poke his chest playfully.

"But you're just so god damn cold and I want to get you hot."

"Then go and make me a cup of tea. I'll be up stairs waiting for it!" I kiss his cheek before making my way back up the stairs and to my bedroom.

10 minutes later, I'm tucked into bed, holding a book in my hands when Henry walks in with a tray with a pot of tea and biscuits.

"Here is your tea and biscuits me lady," He sang to me, place the tray down on my bedside table.

"Now that will be all good sir!" I flicked my hand towards the door, shooing him away.

Henry grips my hand and has a cheeky smile on his face. He kisses the hand and makes his way up my arm. I look at him and smile.

"And what do you think you're doing?"

"I'm..." He kisses my arm, moving up slowly towards my neck. "Trying..." kiss. "To..." kiss. "Seduce..." He reaches my neck and plants a few kisses on it. "You!" He whispers in my ear before giving it a quick nibble.

"But what if I don't want to be seduced?"

"But I wanna seduce you!" Henry pouts like a little child. "You're just so damn sexy and beautiful!"

I blush at his compliments.

"Henry, I don't want to rush anything. I need sometime, ok?"

"Ok..." He pouts and crawls into bed with me. He wraps his arms around my waist and kisses my shoulder gently.

"Thank you," I kiss his forehead and return to my book.

"But when will the time be right?" Henry pushes the subject. I groan out in frustration.

"Why do you want to have sex with me so badly?" I place my book down.

"So I can impregnate you and we can have a beautiful little babies and be together forever!" He jokingly says.

"'I'm being serious here Henry. Why do you want sex with me so badly?" I move away from him in the bed. Unwrapping his arms around from my waist and moving away. "I mean, I haven't had sex since like last year. Before my mum passed away. Edward was very distant around that time and wouldn't even comfort me or help me out during the situation. He was an asshole to me during that time. Ok, and I don't want to mess this relationship up. I want it to be perfect and I just need to take my time.

"It's literally been a year since I've had sex with anyone. Edward wouldn't even touch me in bed. He wouldn't hold me, cuddle me, or kiss me on the cheek, never wanted to hold my hand. He was always distant from me. And now I know why, because he was in love with Olivia. So I just need someone to love me and take care of me. I don't want to rush into anything and I just need time to recover properly." I got out of my bed and wondered over to the window sill. I hugged my body tight.

Henry moves away from the bed and moves closer to me. He kisses my shoulder gently and hugs me tight from behind.

"Why didn't you tell me?"

"Tell you that my last boyfriend of 8 years was an asshole and has been in love with my best friend this whole time we were dating?!" I let out angrily.

"I'm sorry I was trying to rush things. I shouldn't have done that. You said to take things slow and I agreed. I should respect your wishes." He kisses my shoulder.

"I'm sorry for acting like a bitch to you." I mutter an apology.

He smiles under his kisses.

"You weren't being a bitch. You're just being cautious about having sex with someone after what Edward did to you. I understand that and I respect your wishes." Henry turns me around and hugs. He places his chin on top of my head and I nudge my head into his chest.

"Like you said, lets take things slow." He whispers.

I kiss his chest and wrap my arms around him tight.

"Thank you Henry."

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Very long chapter for this awaited chapter. Hopefully you liked it, I did kind of have alittle bit of writers block.