A sharp stinging pain shot through me.

"Y/N?" Katsuki gasped out- his eyes wide with concern.

I've been shot?

"I'm fine," I stuttered out my hand gripping my side.

You're fine.

"Bo- Y/N- it's all over we've detained the leader everyone else has agreed to give in peacefully," Momo rushed over to me.

I must have blacked out for a second.

"Momo," I groaned, gritting my teeth, "get Katsuki out of here."

"You're-" her eyes landed on my hand clutching my side, soaked with blood. "No. You can't- Y/N you're going to be fine," her face crumpled.

We don't know if there are more people coming- we need to get out of here.

There's no time.

It could have hit one of my vitals there isn't time.

"Get Katsuki out of here," my voice faltered as I looked back over at him, his face frozen in shock.

"Y/N-" he repeated again a shallow echo, as if I was already fading in his mind.

It'll be fine as long as you're fine.

"Katsuki," I gasped my breath shallow, "you have to leave."

I love you.

"Can't you-" he looked around wildly for a solution, "isn't there some way to-"

Leave.

"Someone get her out of here," Momo shouted her voice strained and tense.

What a fitting end.

My vision blurred until I couldn't see anything at all.

I wish we had reconnected earlier.

Katsuki.

I wish I had never done this in the first place.

"Y/N L/N, you're just a student, how did you ever manage to take down such a large group of my men?"

What am I doing here?

"What the fuck do you want with me?" A younger, ruder, cockier version of me spat out.

I must be dreaming.

"Don't worry, no one is going to hurt you- you just need to cooperate," a familiar voice that sent chills running down my spine hummed.

What an awful dream.

"I don't have a choice do I?" I watched as a younger me relaxed in resignation.

That's right I didn't have a choice.

"Your answer?" In this vague memory the Boss looked like a dull black abyss, shifting and swirling hypnotically.

I can't believe this is the last thing I'm going to see before I die.

"Alright- I'll do it," I watched myself quickly getting absorbed into the dark swirling mass, before I was alone again.

In darkness.

I wish I could have been shown a happier memory.

Spring mornings, walks in the park, confessions, first kisses, whispers in the dark.

There are so many to choose from.

My only regret is not making more.

I should have told Momo to cut ties with Katsuki after this-

To let him live a normal life.

That's the least I could give him.

She'll know what to do.

Let me die now.

God is an asshole-

Everything hurts.

I'm tired and dehydrated.

"Y/N-" Someone was shaking me.

Stop doing that- it hurts.

I groaned loudly, wincing from the pain.

Wait- shaking? Someone's shaking me?

"She needs her rest," a distorted voice broke through the crushing silence.

Rest? Where am I? Is Katsuki safe?

A door clicked shut.

I still can't see anything.

"You have to wake up Y/N," a hand wrapped around mine, and a voice that was unmistakably Katsuki's pleaded. "I'll do whatever you fucking want just wake up."

Don't curse over my comatose body idiot.

"I'll," his voice faltered, something wet hit my cheek, "I'll do better."

What did you do?

You never did anything.

You didn't ask for this.

I'm the one who brought you into it.

You didn't even want to- I didn't tell you what you were getting into until it was too late.

And even then you didn't leave me- even when you knew.

So don't say that- please don't.

"Can you hear me?" A faint whisper reached my ears.

Yes- I can.

"Probably not."

I can.

I can hear you- I'm here.

Wake up Y/N!

"It didn't hit any vitals- it just took us a while to get you somewhere safe, and then you couldn't go to a hospital because of course the fuck not." Katsuki seemed to be explaining the situation to himself more than anything.

STOP CURSING.

When I wake up I'm going to kiss you and then I'm going to slap you.

I'll tease you relentlessly- I just need to wake up.

"If you can hear me squeeze my hand," a moment of silence passed. I willed myself to do something but nothing happened, my heart sunk. "I guess now's the time to talk shit about you."

You've never had a problem doing that to my face before.

You must have something harsh to say if you never said it to me before.

I hate this feeling- I want to be able to do something.

I was so content with leaving this pain behind and fading away.

But now I want anything but that.

I'll deal with this god awful headache if it means I'll get to wake up.

Please- let me speak.

"You're awful for making me wait like this- what the fuck am I supposed to do? Sit here and wait? I feel so useless," his voice wavered even more than it had been.

I know- I know exactly how you feel.

Wake up Y/N.

Wake up.

"You're such a pain in the ass you know that?" He paused, "but even so I can't stop loving you- idiot." I felt his face bury into my chest.

And then as if by some miracle.

My vision cleared- I was back at home- I must have been out for several days.

I can see.

I glanced around wildly, still unable to move my body.

Katsuki-

His hand was laced with mine, his head still buried into me as silent sobs wracked through his body.

"You're awful at insults," I groaned out, my voice raspy and dry.

I'm back.

His eyes met mine, and melted into a smile.

You don't have to cry anymore.

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