Kid.

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Sometimes

I feel like a little kid

That grew up too quickly.

My body grew but my mind did not

And now I'm here

In a place that I don't understand.

I'm still a kid

I'm still a kid

My mind is just a kid.

I hate when people say that I'm smart

I'm not

I just catch on quickly.

It was easy to do it when it was easy

But it's not so easy anymore

And I'm not so smart anymore.

I think

If I went back in time

And I saw my past self

She would laugh

And she would tell me

Just how stupid

I really am.

I feel like a little kid

So young

So small

And I don't know how many things work or how to make them go

I just try my best

And sometimes things work out.

I'm not smart

I'm not smart

My mind is not smart.

Everybody expects me to go

And do great things

But I think I'm just going to end up messing things up.

People say they want

To make a difference in the world.

I just want to make sure

I don't end up

As an insignificant train wreck.

Just another sacrifice along the way.

I feel like

I'm a background character

In my own life.

Like the supporting cast

That dies

And motivates the main character.

And I don't know who it is

But I don't want to die and be a motivation.

I want to do something.

Or at least not be how I am.

I don't know what's wrong with me.

I think something is wrong but i'm not sure what it is.

My head hurts sometimes even though I get sleep and I eat breakfast

And I feel really tired even when I sleep extra on the way to school.

Because I think

That I'm tired

On the inside.

And that's

What really

Matters.

I don't think

Any amount

Of sleep

Will help,

But I can't

Do anything

But go

To sleep.

So I'm going

To sleep

And hope

That things

Get better.

I'm going

To hope

When I

Wake up

In the morning,

I feel

Better than

I do

Now.

Because

I don't

Feel good

Right now.

Right now

I feel

Like a little kid.

Right now

I feel like

My body

Grew up,

And left

My mind

Behind.