‹ gillie ›

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i.

would it be silly

if i told you, gillie

i still believe 

in you and me?

even when you already said

you only wanted to be with me

because you thought

i could make you happy

you needed saving

i didn't want to be your fix

purity was non-existent

in this thing we called love

i saw how it would end

the minute i said i wanted to be

your one and only

i knew you would break me

i was blind to the toxicity

gillie, how's it feel

not waking up right beside me?

does it make you cry?

because i feel like screaming

whenever you cross my mind

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ii.

telling someone they mean the world to you when they really don't is so much worse than shattering their heart and telling them you just can't make yourself love them.

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iii.

you can't make people

the reason for you to live

because when they leave

and oh, honey, they will

you'll be all on your own

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he said he'd do anything for meᅳthen he used me.

he said things didn't need to changeᅳthen they did. 

he said he'd never leaveᅳthen he did.

i told myself i didn't love him ᅳ then i made him my muse.

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