i'm really trying
not to

catch feelings
out here

but you're testin' me

oh, your words

and actions

bring me ecstasy

you don't know
that i'm struggling
trying to fight the urge
to tell you
all the words inside my head
and i'm all about you
but you don't need to know

you don't need to know

i'll just pretend
i don't think
that you're
lovely

i say mean things
and pretend i don't give a shit
but really
i just want you here
right next to me

so call me a bully
if you will
it's just the way
i hide what i feel