this one is short and angsty (as per usual with this one-shot book) ! they're in a relationship whether or not it's platonic or romantic or whatever is up to your perspective. point is- they care about each other, that's why its so easy to fight over things like this. 

"You're a self-centered asshole!" I cursed slamming the door behind me as I burst into my own room, ignoring Levi who followed close behind, a deep scowl etched onto his features.

"Sure, fine, I'm the asshole for watching out for you," he rolled his eyes, scoffing loudly.

"You're not watching out for anyone Levi- you're going to die in an alleyway someday and I'll be all alone. What the fuck am I supposed to do then? Take me with you."

"You would survive, and I won't die in a filthy alleyway- I'm doing this so that you don't die in a filthy alleyway."

"You're selfish," hot tears began to well up in the corners of my eyes.

"You're being childish," his tone softened at my expression.

No, you're being childish.

"What am I going to do? What happens if you die? I'm going to rot away waiting for you to come back," the tears came spilling down my cheeks.

"I'll come back- I always do."

"One day you won't."

A heavy silence laid in the air between us as I stood crying in the middle of the dingy room and he stared, his knuckles white as he gripped onto the door handle. An indescribable expression rested on his face, grief, indignation, anger, apology.

"You don't even have anything to say- just leave." I turned away, burying my face into the pillow.

Feelings get you nowhere in the underground.

"I leave tomorrow," Levi let out a sigh, shutting the door gently behind him.

I know- I know you do.

"I'll be back," Levi turned towards the door, Isabel and Farlan stood outside expectantly. The dull glow of lantern lights illuminating their faces in the dark.

"I'm coming with you."

"No you aren't- stay. Someone needs to watch this place while we're gone," he shot me a commanding look before stalking out of the room.

You're right I won't leave.

"Kuchel would have been able to stop you."

"She's not here is she?"

"No, you're right."

I wish she was.

I miss her.

"You can't die Levi- what would she think?"

"She's dead. Those are empty words Y/N- I'm not going to die."

"I won't forgive you if you leave me waiting."

"I'm not going to," the door clicked behind him- the warm glow from outside disappearing.

A familiar sight.

An empty house.

Save for a girl and the furniture.

One of us isn't going to keep their promise one day.

You aren't going to come back and I won't be able to do anything.

Or you'll come back too late and I'll already be gone.

I know it.

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sometimes i listen to chelsea by phoebe bridgers and it gives me fic ideas <6

this is how i see the story continuing (i just don't know how to write it):

levi, isabel, and farlan are leaving to go on the mission that inevitably leads to them getting taken above ground. despite obvious reservations, they leave- with the belief that they'll be able to come back to take y/n above ground.

y/n's nightmares become reality as she waits for them to come back. all the while believing that they really are dead in an alleyway somewhere. 

post-mission outside of the walls- levi comes back, having lost isabel and farlan he hopes to at least bring y/n above ground. however, aware of how he has validated her fears he finds himself stalling- unsure of her reaction. apology fully prepared, but a piece of him so deep in self-loathing that he hopes that she screams at him and turns him away, he goes. 

there's a memory somewhere in here, of kuchel- and then a memory of y/n. playing on the lines of the song that go 'you are somebody's baby some mother held you near. no its not important they're just pretty words my dear' (i just think that that part is rlly pretty so). 

levi arrives at the base, opens the door and finds a ruined room. 

its unclear what's happened to y/n. 

the story ends.

- ami