Jack G's P.O.V.

"You. Did. What?"

I can't believe him! He told her, why the hell would he do that? I hate him so much right now, he promised he wouldn't tell! "How could you?" I yelled at him. "You told her that I loved her! Why?"

Jack winced. "I don't know, she said something, and I just snapped. But!" he stopped me from opening my mouth to yell at him again. "But, she didn't believe me. She refuses to believe anything of the sort." he averted his eyes away from me, looking at the ground, letting me know that he was hiding something else.

"Jack, there's something else you're not telling me. What is it?" I paced the room, covering my face with my hands. Jack didn't respond to me. "Jack Johnson!" I yelled, making him jump to his feet. "What the fuck are you hiding from me?"

Jack sighed and raised his hands to tug at his blond hair. "I'm sorry Jack, but that's not for me to tell. If you must know, ask Sage, but she won't be showing her face around for a while. She said she'd be staying at Shawn's house for a couple days. You'll get your shot when she comes back."

I didn't know what to do, there were a bunch of emotions trapped inside me, and I didn't know how to express them. There was a little bit of everything inside of me, fear, hatred, hurt, betrayed, and longing. I needed Sage, I needed to be with her. I can't stand not knowing how to live without her. Sage was what kept me going, and she wasn't even here with me. She hated me.

Jack noticed the tension that was coming from me, and he tried to put his hand on my shoulder. "Jack, this is all on you," he told me. "You are the one who was too afraid to tell her your feelings, you were the one who pushed her away, you were the one who lost her. You need to be the one to get her back. And I can't help you anymore. Sage's secret is Sage's secret, and it's not for me to tell. I'm sorry Jack." he patted my back and started heading down the stairs.

I sat down on the bed, and for the first time in the two years in which I haven't seen Sage, I cried. I sobbed my heart out because I knew that Jack was right. I had lost her. It was my fault. And now I realize that it will have to be me to get her back.

I stood up and rummaged through my bags. I couldn't talk to Sage now, and the pain was unbearable. I needed to take care of it somehow. I dug out my razor and ran to the bathroom. I had to keep the pain of not having Sage bearable, and this is the only way.

I decided to stop here because I really don't like writing these scenes, although I will if absolutely necessary.

Just remember that cutting is never the answer. And I'm positive Jack Gilinsky doesn't really cut, he's so gorgeous, and every one of his fans loves to remind him that.

I just want to let you know, that if there is something bothering you, and you feel the need to self harm in any way, don't. You're always worth it, you're beautiful, no matter what you're told by others. If you need to talk to someone, I will always be here for you, I always check my inbox, and I do have a kik and Twitter as well. I'll put all my social media below, and you'll be able to talk to me on any of them, most of them are on my phone.

I promise, that whatever it is, you can get through it. Please keep fighting. If not for yourself, for me.

I love you all. Don't forget that.

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