I don't move from my room for a few days. I spend it on my iPad reading and doing work. I have a sketch book out on my bed, with drawings everywhere. Various magazines scattered across the floor of my bedroom with pages ripped out.

I like the solitude in my room. My earbuds to my iPod are in and the music pounding. I have the Jonas brothers playing while I bob my head and my legs while I draw from sketches of new our new clothing line. I take a sip of my tea and resume the drawing process.

Jonathon and I have been on contact with the design process. I'm sending images of my sketches and getting his feed back. He keeps saying to check with Phillip, but I refuse to. After the kiss, I am ashamed to face him. I completely embarrassed myself infront of him. I just threw myself on him and he turned me down.

I groan and grab a pillow to scream into. I scream loud into the pillow. I soon finish and realise the pillow and chuck it on the floor.

I don't hear a knock on my door and someone walking in, and a hand is on my back. I freak out and turn around. My dad stands there looking concerned.

He starts saying something but I can't hear him. I pull out my earbuds and look at him.

"Sorry, can you repeat that?" I ask nicely.

"I said dinner is ready Isla," He frowns at me, "are you ok?"

"Yeah, I'm fine," I lie, "I'm not hungry though. But thanks for telling me."

I bend down and pick up my pillow and walk back to my bed. I sit down and pick up a few sketches. My dad still stands in the room. He lets out a sigh and walks to the door.

"You haven't eaten in two days Isla, I'm just worried," And he walks out of my room.

I let out a sigh and pick up my tea and take a sip. My stomach growls at the thought of food.

I give into my growling stomach about 10 minutes later. I walk down slowly to the kitchen and hear everyone talking. A few laughs and then clinking of glasses. I stop in the doorway and Alannah is first to notice me.

"Isla, come for dinner have we?" She smiles sweetly at me.

I nod to her. "May I join you all?"

"Of course sweetie," She gestures to the table.

I walk to the table to only find a spot open next to Phillip. I reluctantly take the seat next to him. He looks at me and smiles, however I just keep my face straight.

"So there's lasagna and scalloped potatoes and rocket with Parmesan salad," Alannah informs me of what's on the table. I grab a small piece of lasagna and some salad. I pick a few crunchy cheesy slices of potatoes.

Dad pours me a glass of water and places it down in front of me. I smile my thank you to my dad and take a sip of water.

My hearts beating fast and I'm suddenly nervous. I start on the lasagne, chew quietly and just listen to the conversation around me.

During the middle of dinner, Phillip gives me a quick nudge.

"Are you ok?" He whispers, "you haven't said a thing all through dinner."

"I'm fine," I hiss back at him

Phillip moves his hand and tries to grab mine. I shove it away from me.

Dad and Alannah finish dinner and ask Sean and Seamus to clean up the table. I quietly try to finish my dinner while the boys clean up the table. Phillip helps the boys quickly finish cleaning the table.

I take the last mouthful of lasagne and pick up my plate, cutlery and glass.

"Here, let me," Phillip moves over to take my dishes away.

"It's alright, I've got it!" I warn him off, push through him and place in the dish washer. Phillip follows me into the kitchen and places his hand on my arm.

I shrug him off.

"Isla, I'm sorry,"

"You know what Phillip, Fuck of!" I quickly get away from him and march upstairs to my bedroom.

~~**~~

Two weeks until Christmas and I'm seriously having a hard time thinking of gifts for people.

We are all in London spending the weekend in town to visit dad's side of the family. Apparently visiting my grandparents, whom I've never met. And my uncle, his wife and children.

Alannah is shopping by herself. The boys and Phillip are shopping together and Dad's with me. We are sitting inside a small little cafe just off Northumberland street. His sipping on his tea and I'm slowly eating a mixed berry muffin.

"So, I'm just going to mention a few ground rules for tonight," Dad finishes his sip of tea. "My mother and father are very powerful people here. And your uncle, my brother and I don't exactly get along. You are also the eldest grand child, meaning you maybe set to get the inheritance which doesn't sit well with my brother. Since no one on my side of the family has met you, only seen photos of you. Also the family title.

"You may be referred to as Lady Isla by the servants in the house. As will I, well Lord Cormac. You are to be polite and puncational to all things. Play nice with everyone and please don't, whatever you do, please don't mention your mother to my parents. They didn't like her, well they hated her." He looks up at me. "Do you understand?"

I nod and take another bite of my muffin.

"You'll be fine Isla," Dad grabs my hand and squeezes it. "If you feel like you're going to sink or die just let me know."

"Can we have a code word?" I finish my mouthful of muffin, "like... Like... Hmm,"

"How about Northumberland?" Dad suggests.

"Northumberland it is!" I smile back at him, "hopefully I won't have to use it, fingers crossed!"

"Fingers crossed!"

Dad's phone rings shortly after that. It's Alannah.

"Yes dear... Yes... Ok, I'll be there shortly... Love you too... Bye" He finishes his phone call with Alannah and looked at me, "So, I have to meet up with Alannah, do you think you can make it back in one piece to the hotel?"

"Yes, I've just got to finish up my shopping and then I'll be heading back there."

"Ok, if you get lost, don't be afraid to call me or the boys, alright?"

"Ok dad," I stand up and grab my purse, "I'll be fine, have fun!"

"See you soon munchkin," He kisses my forehead and walks out of the cafe.

I pay the bill for my muffin and dads pot of tea. I gripped my purse bag, which was this little vintage dark brown leather bag with a key lock clasp. I placed my coat back on, wrapped my scarf around my neck and walked out of the cafe.

It had just started to rain outside, so I hailed a taxi to take me back to the hotel. I couldn't do any shopping because I had no clue what to get anyone. And I couldn't be bothered doing any shopping. Which wasn't like me, since I loved shopping.

I got back to the hotel and went straight to my room. I entered my room, placed my somewhat wet coat on a chair near the heater. I grabbed my phone out of my purse and dialled a number.

"Isla," a sleepy voiced finally picked up.

"Hey sorry did I wake you?" I asked.

"Well considering it's an 11 hour time difference and its 2 in the morning, then yes you did wake me!" Jonathon was somewhat grumpy.

"Sorry, I'll call back in the morning," I apologised to him.

"Isla, you called me," he sighs out, "you must want to talk to me, what's wrong?"

And with that I just spilled out everything. I told him my feelings for Phillip and what happened between Henry and I here. I told him what Henry told me about Phillip's feelings towards me and what happened in the kitchen. And then what happened at dinner. By the end of it, I was crying.

"Hey, shhh," he was trying to sooth me from the other side of the world, "you'll be fine, you don't need him, you have me, maggie and my two beautiful twins coming!"

I laughed at him. He was cheering me up and he knew it.

"Thank you Jonathon," I replied, "I really need this and to just hear your voice. Now I better prepare for meeting my grandparents."

"Night Isla, have fun," he says to me, "I love you and don't forget that!"

"I love you too, bye and say hi to maggie for me!"

And then we hung up. And I got ready to meet the grandparents.

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