Chapter 78

It was the strangest feeling, finally knowing that yes, I was ready for this. As if all the second guessing had gone off in flames.

            I should have had that honest conversation with Lexi before. I needed to learn to communicate my feelings.

            And now I needed to learn to stop thinking when I was apparently about to make love to the actual love of my life.

            One hand in my hair, the other on my back, Lexi said, "it's snowing outside and I'm with you. How more romantic could it get?"

            She had a point. Maybe it was a good thing we'd put this off until now, then. Still, I smirked, "I have a few ideas."

            "You can shut up now," she replied, and at the same time, raised her leg, grabbed my boxers with her toes and pulled them down.

            Pulling stuff like that was not okay!

            How would I have any chances of lasting when she was being this hot?

            "Is this how you want me? Silent?" I teased her, and after kicking off the boxers, pressed myself closer, against her. The anticipation almost had me shaking.

            "Yes, I just want you to lay there and not utter one sound," Lexi replied, her tone letting me know I wasn't the only one affected here.

            "You wound me." I breathed, and made quick work of getting rid of her bra.

Much better now.

            "You'll get over it..."

            "By getting over you?"

            "Banter? Even now?"

            "You don't like it?"

            "Oh, I like it."

            Her tone, her hands one me, skin against skin.

            I liked it too.

My Pumpkin was really going to be my undoing.

My pressed my lips against hers, effectively ending the bantering. I wanted, needed to feel more of her. My hand reached for one of her breasts, kneading at her skin, pleased sounds resonating from my girlfriend.

There would always be a part of me that would be incredulous, that this could be happening, however many times I'd kissed girlfriend before, or felt her breath hitch from my touch.

Having her like this, having any part of her... I would always be grateful for it. Grateful actually wasn't even enough of a word to encompass how it felt, to have her in my arm, legs wrapped around me, holding me close, feeling her breath on my lips.

The only piece of clothing still left between us was Lexi's panties. We had to fix that.

I reluctantly let go of her breast, sliding my hand against her skin all the way down, reaching between us, slipping under fabric, my fingers easily finding the sweetest spot.

Lexi's breath caught again.

We'd done this dance before, so this wasn't uncharted territory. I stroked and taunted, already knowing how my girlfriend liked it.

My lips went to her breasts, her breathing hitching, her hands tangling in my hair, pulling at them.

She was moving her hips against my hand, one leg tightly wrapped around me. She'd stroke my leg with her other foot before, but not it was like she didn't have the concentration to do anything else.

She was warm and she was wet, but I wanted her undone.

This wasn't enough.

Kissing my way down, I finally pulled her panties off, spread her legs and pressed my lips to her core.

What I lacked in skill in this domain, I made up in enthusiasm. My girlfriend was certainly not complaining.

She moaned my name, sending shivers down my spine.

I wanted to stay parked here and keep pushing her to the edge.

But I was so hard, I could feel my heartbeat between my legs.

And I knew what I needed to do next.

            I kissed my way back up, taking my sweet time once I reached her breasts, sucking each nipples, feeling like I was hacking her sanity away.

            Her hands were on my butt, pressing me to her, like she was trying to guide me exactly where I wanted to be.

            "Still time to back down..." I whispered against her skin.

I didn't know why exactly I was whispering. We were alone here. Maybe it was because this was a reverent moment, which required solemn silence.

            This did kind of feel like my own special brand of worshipping.

            "Never," Lexi breathed back, teeth grazing the skin at my shoulder, fingers digging in my back.

And finally, after all the years of pinning, after all the unnecessary heartache, after loving her and having her finally loving me, I sank into her. 

We both gasped and stilled.

"Are you okay?" I asked, before doing anything else.

This felt too good to be true for me, but it could be quite different for Lexi. This was her first time.

Lexi didn't answer though, she just threw her head back, eyes closed, mouth gapping.

"Lexi?"

She let out a moan and I was about to ask her again, if she was okay, but then she said, "Fuck me."

I almost came, right then and there. I had not been ready for filthy mouth Lexi.

But then, my girlfriend had just made a demand. Who was I to deny her?

Slowly, I started to move. Half out. All in. Lexi cursed some more, nails digging into my skin.

I kept a rhythm as much as I could, but I felt like I was going to lose control.

How had I ever been able to stop myself before?

When it felt like this, to be inside of her, to feel her like this.

I was just nerves and hormones and feelings.

I tried to keep a grip on my sanity, but that kind of went up in flames, when out of nowhere, Lexi bucked her hips and switched us around.

I looked up incredulous at her, as she pinned me against the bed, keeping us connected.

She leaned down, licking my chest, dragging her teeth, before pressing her hands against it for leverage as she started to move.

I let out an ungodly moan.

How sex always meant to feel this way? Maybe I was still a virgin after all then, if this was how sex was supposed to feel. It had never been like this with anyone before.

It never could have been like this, because none of them were Lexi.

I wanted this vision to be seared into my eyeballs.

            My hands went to cup her breasts, as she rocked against me.

            I'd always felt like I'd be hers before, but never like this. Never so entirely like this.

            And when she finally came undone, I followed her a heartbeat later, knowing that I would never belong to anyone but her, for the rest of my life.

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Happy Monday my little Pumpkins!

Did I fall asleep randomly in a corner instead of uploading at midnight like I was supposed to, and then woke up in a slight panic and realized I had a Patreon chapter to finish and a Wattpad chapter to upload?

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Also, I wrote this chapter hidden away in the wood at my parents' house, and I had like zero booze in me, so that means I second guessed this shiiiiit out of it. XD Hopefully you enjoyed it. Also, I have NOT re-read it because I cringe, so. Sorry for the mistakes this chapter is probably full of. I just didn't feel like it. XD

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